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A wise man once said that, “We can never obtain peace in the outer world until we make peace with ourselves.” Perhaps you are looking for peace in the wrong place.

Peace cannot exist when there are factors in your life fucking it up. A few moments of peace before returning to a life where everyone wants to take what you have and get in your face.

I think you missed the point of the quote, it was the Dalia Lama, actually. That if you had inner peace, self love, strength? You wouldn't be at war with those outside elements you would be able to control them, instead of the other way around.

And no one can give you inner peace but yourself.

I think you missed the point of what I was trying to say. And if you knew anything about my family or those connected to it, you'd know that there is no controlling the world around us because there are too many factors, abilities and worlds involved in the equation.

I don't even know why I'm discussing this with you.

I'm starting to learn. It is hard to feel in control when everything around you is out of control but....if you can be in control of yourself at peace with you wouldn't all of that other shit be easier to handle? Have you tried martial arts of any form? Honestly? Not just beating on a bag when you are mad, but learning the art of it?

If you would like I will leave. I've been slapped enough for the week.

I don't think that would help, it would make me want to beat the living shit out of someone more than I already do. I'm tired of people telling me my mind when I know what I think and how I feel.

If I had the choice you would be gone completely from anything connected to my life.

The heart of most martial arts are centered on the idea of inner peace and control. Not violence, that was why I asked.

Believe it or not, Al, I sometimes wish for the same. And sometimes I wish it were you that was gone, but then I know that either choice would hurt Mac more than he is already hurting. As much as he worries he will hurt you and I, we have hurt him as well.

Has Bella been found? Is she safe?

Not even the calmest of hearts would be able to withstand this.

Things would have been different if he'd never met you, I know this and it's what hurts the most. Our last fight was over you and then many after that. If he'd never met you we would have made that fresh start we wanted and would still be married. And I am done discussing Fia with you.

Bella is safe, not that our daughter is any of your concern.

Believe that if it makes you feel better. Our meeting was not the end of your relationship, though it is understandable to want to blame someone for it. At some point you have to take responsibility for your own part.

You aren't the first person to get divorced and you won't be the last.

She is a child, I have a child, my concern comes from a place of understanding. If someone had taken my child I would be....I can't think of how that would make me feel.

I know the truth, I know our conversations. You believe what you will.

There's no way to describe how I feel, but she is where she belongs and hopefully Fia and I can bring her home.

You think. You don't know. Because you are scared of the real truth. I've spoken at length to Eothian. There was someone between you and Mac long before he ever met me.

I am glad that she is safe. For both your sakes.

He's just trying to cause trouble so Fia stay's away from me.

He's just a troublemaker then? Not in love with you. That is what you believe?

There is no truth to what he says? Or are you just too scared to admit he might be right because it might hurt Mac?

Eothian doesn't understand love, he understands lust and attention, he mistakes both for love.

The only truth is that this has nothing to do with you.

You don't start out in love. Lust and attraction, affection, spending time together that turns to love.

Nothing to do with me? Yet I am the one taking all the blame for the demise of your perfect, fairytale marriage.

Maybe you need to ask him about the first time we met and you will understand.

No, nothing to do with you. Yes, you played your part but I want nothing to do with you so it is none of you damn business.