[soft sigh as she tries to come up with a coherent answer]
Because those in my life tend to push my boundaries... which makes a certain amount of sense. I can be -- cold. Distant. I suppose I rather need the connection with other, more dynamic individuals.
[faintly] Does any of that make sense?
I suppose the problem truly is when the transgressions upon my -- when I find myself being pulled in different directions. When duty and desire duel... how far is too far in being selfish?
It makes a lot of sense actually. I think people would say that I am similar, although I like to believe that I have become better at relating to people in recent years.
When you say duty and desire, you are talking about choosing a person over your work? Or is it that you work with the person you desire?
A little of both, really. Everything is hideously complicated.
There's a colleague of mine, whom I've known for years... We've gotten a lot closer lately. The work that we do is very important and it can be difficult to have a life outside of it, even with someone from the inside.
And then there's the distractions from that work. The return of a... former lover I suppose -- he's quite opposed to the work I do. And there's my current sometime-flame who said colleague can't stand--
I'm being pulled in so many directions and I don't know how far I can go in each without snapping like a rubber band. Hence appealing to strangers for guidance, I suppose.
Hmm, well someone once told me there are lines that you can't cross when you work with someone in high-risk situation. But then someone else once told me to climb Mount Everest, which I think they were using as an analogy for a good outcome of having sex with someone you work closely with. I didn't really get what they meant entirely.
I think it would be best for your work to get rid of all distractions. If you were working for me I would tell you to either compartmentalize and leave your emotions out of it or cut out the things that are complicating your life at work.
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That sort of nonsense.
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Because those in my life tend to push my boundaries... which makes a certain amount of sense. I can be -- cold. Distant. I suppose I rather need the connection with other, more dynamic individuals.
[faintly] Does any of that make sense?
I suppose the problem truly is when the transgressions upon my -- when I find myself being pulled in different directions. When duty and desire duel... how far is too far in being selfish?
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When you say duty and desire, you are talking about choosing a person over your work? Or is it that you work with the person you desire?
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There's a colleague of mine, whom I've known for years... We've gotten a lot closer lately. The work that we do is very important and it can be difficult to have a life outside of it, even with someone from the inside.
And then there's the distractions from that work. The return of a... former lover I suppose -- he's quite opposed to the work I do. And there's my current sometime-flame who said colleague can't stand--
I'm being pulled in so many directions and I don't know how far I can go in each without snapping like a rubber band. Hence appealing to strangers for guidance, I suppose.
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I think it would be best for your work to get rid of all distractions. If you were working for me I would tell you to either compartmentalize and leave your emotions out of it or cut out the things that are complicating your life at work.
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But it probably depends on the person.
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'Who I want to be', though... perhaps I've already gone too far, then.
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