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Sometimes... I still wish I'd die when it's all over

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[heavenshield.livejournal.com]

Really? Why?

[x-twistedmind.livejournal.com]

.... I don't always know why.

[heavenshield.livejournal.com]

Don't let Altair hear you say that.

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I know.

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We're counting on you, Kaelyn. Don't do anything stupid.

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.... Why are you counting on me? I know why Nox is...

[heavenshield.livejournal.com]

He won't listen to anyone else... and I know he's happiest with you.

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[heavenshield.livejournal.com]

He chose you over Agkelos, don't forget that.

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.... I'm not doing it on purpose.

[heavenshield.livejournal.com]

Doing what on purpose?

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Thinking like this.

[heavenshield.livejournal.com]

Something must have caused it in the first place though.

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I don't know. Just.... sometimes I can't help but think about it.

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Do you think you deserve it?

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Not always. Sometimes. Most the time I just think it would all be... easier just... not existing.

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You're not the only one who's thought like that before, believe me.

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How do you make them go away?

[heavenshield.livejournal.com]

...I wish I knew. Sayuri... she helps though.

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.... Nox helps me most times...

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Then let him. And who knows maybe those feelings will go away eventually.