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What kind of experiment?

It's top secret.

Well...can I know?

Alright. But for real don't laugh?

I promise I will not.

Well it's kinda this thing that's been happening and it really bothers me but more so lately. I always get blown off for chicks. And well I thought if I could maybe just... I don't know try to date one or sleep with one or give her a fair shot maybe it would be good...or something cause I used to think that I just didn't like anyone, but now I think I might and it kind of bothers me... I just thought it might give me perception....

I don't see why you would be blown off, darling.

So I have a couple questions. Are you blown off by other guys or by girls?

And I could help you if you wish it. *smiles a little* Just so you can gain some perception.

I won't be insulted if you want someone else.

I changed my mind. I'll let you know if I change it again.

Did I make you nervous with the question or the offer?

Sorry, I was a little spastic for a minute last night.

You didn't make me nervous, a friend of mine was just giving me a hard time.

I don't really talk about this stuff with anyone so it's kinda weird.

To answer your question, it's guys that blow me off. I don't have any girl friends. Hell at this point I don't think I have any guy friends... I have two bandmates and ...this other guy.

It's alright, you have nothing to apologize for.

What was he giving you a hard time about?

We don't have to talk about anything but sometimes it's nice to have someone to talk about things with.

This other guy...he was the one giving you a hard time?

I don't really have much to do with people outside of my family and those that worship. I admit, I find things a little weird at times.

Well he's convinced I'm gay...

And he doesn't think that sleeping with a girl will do anything but make things worse. And well really I don't think sex should be casual anyway... The whole thing is just really complicated for me.

Well, are you? There's nothing to be ashamed of.

You're possibly right, it just might make you feel guilty or worse about things.

I wish I could make it easier for you though.

Well no. Okay maybe. Actually probably, but it's like....ya know maybe I just haven't met the right girl or something... I don't know. I never liked a guy before Cam....

Anyway...

That's a sweet thought.

You can't always pick who your heart cares for. It's an old line and cheesy but true.

So what about him makes you care?

I just hate to see some people in turmoil.

Yeah.

That's the thing... I just don't get it.

Kinda like the way he talks, he makes me so mad and then it makes me think and the next thing I know he's like all I think about.

It surely sounds like you care for him quite a bit.

Is he gay?

*cough* He's okay...

Nope, he's bi.

*smiles a little*

Any reason to think he might care about you?

None at all.

We're friends... and he keeps saying that he wants to...show me or something but then he said that he didn't want me to sleep with him... The whole thing is confusing.

I really don't think that sex should be meaningless you know, but it's kind of like all this pressure right now to just get it out of the way and find out. Maybe he's right though and I should probably just do it with a guy cause there's honestly more of a chance that that's what I'm into....

((OOC: He rambles so much. XD))

Well then, from my understanding, he does care for you. That would be the reason he would tell you not to sleep with him, he might be scared of ruining things between the two of you.

No of course not but unfortunately, sometimes, it is. Most of my life, I have been faithful. Don't listen to what others might pressure you into, I'd hate for you to start to hate yourself because you did something you didn't want to do. You could find some guy but wouldn't that be random and meaningless too?

Maybe. But then he talks about wanting me... I dont' think that there's anything between us. He doesnt' "do" relationships... and well I think that if I was gonna be with someone I'd want something like that maybe, probably...I dunno...

It's mostly me doing the pressuring of myself. It's just now he's got me wondering about it... And I just don't like anyone else...

I think its because he doesn't "do" relationships, he's worried he can't offer you what you deserve.

I'm sorry, if I were a guy, I'd try to help you. I mean...I could change forms.

*thinks*

But again, I don't want you to do something that you'd regret. I know it's hard but sometimes patience is the best thing to have.

Yeah. I kinda just wish that I could go back to not thinking about this stuff.

I probably could if I focussed on writing.

I uh...Thanks for talking to me about it at least. I don't really think that I could go through with anything like that yet anyway, as pathetic as my current virginity status may be. It's been nice having someone to bounce off of with my thoughts... It can be hard to talk about with Cam and my other friends... well I can't talk to them about it...

You should learn meditation, I could help you learn.

What do you like to read?

Well, if you would like, I could be considered a friend you could talk to. About anything and at any time. I know that can make things easier at times.

And darling, you are not pathetic. Some treasure virginity.

I tried that once... I usually just play guitar to get my mind off of things, it's kind of self hypnotizing.

Right now I'm reading Tale of Two Cities...

I think I'd like that, by the way, I'm Damion. :D

And yeah, it's definitely a hot topic lately.

I love music. *soft sigh, smiles*

Never read it.

I'm Hebe. *warmer smile*

Ah yes, Ares.

*laughs*

Cool. *beams*

I'm in a band.

Though I think I'm off to bed for the night now.

Thanks again.

I'd love to hear you play sometime then.

Goodnight Damion!

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