http://the-rob-hawkins.livejournal.com/ ([identity profile] the-rob-hawkins.livejournal.com) wrote in [community profile] sixwordstories2008-01-27 02:03 am
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[identity profile] notantichrist.livejournal.com 2008-01-27 07:14 am (UTC)(link)
You too?

ooc:I just saw this movie and I couldn't help commenting

[identity profile] notantichrist.livejournal.com 2008-01-27 07:24 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah. Nightmares. You?

ooc: ignore the anon. It's me. Apparently I shouldn't be allowed to post this late

[identity profile] the-rob-hawkins.livejournal.com 2008-01-27 07:26 am (UTC)(link)
...same. Have you had yours long?

[identity profile] notantichrist.livejournal.com 2008-01-27 07:29 pm (UTC)(link)
For about three years. You?

[identity profile] diamond-18.livejournal.com 2008-01-27 07:35 am (UTC)(link)
Ha. Who can sleep? I am thinking of calling our disorder something...like something cooler than that effing "Post Traumatic Stress" shit that the therapist shoves down my throat. What do you think?

[identity profile] the-rob-hawkins.livejournal.com 2008-01-27 07:40 am (UTC)(link)
Probably best to be as creative as possible.

[identity profile] diamond-18.livejournal.com 2008-01-27 07:43 am (UTC)(link)
Well yes, that is the plan. I haven't been so creative lately though. My fashion design job has gone down the drain but I swear if someone tells me that this is "A disorder battle....you have to be stronger than the disorder, overcome it" I am going to scream.....

*locked to Marlena*

[identity profile] the-rob-hawkins.livejournal.com 2008-01-27 07:45 am (UTC)(link)
I would scream too. Have screamed...thats pretty much what Jason has been telling me in not so many words. I nearly decked him the other night.

Re: *locked to Marlena*

[identity profile] diamond-18.livejournal.com 2008-01-27 07:48 am (UTC)(link)
I heard....things aren't going to well?....sorry that was a stupid question. Of course they aren't, who are they going well for?

Listen, I'm sure your annoyed with people asking you this but....are you ok Rob?

Re: *locked to Marlena*

[identity profile] the-rob-hawkins.livejournal.com 2008-01-27 07:50 am (UTC)(link)
Things are fine.

*Sighs. He is indeed annoyed with people asking that* Yeah. Everything is good.

Re: *locked to Marlena*

[identity profile] diamond-18.livejournal.com 2008-01-27 07:58 am (UTC)(link)
Yes, your sigh tells me things are fine....

*She knows there is something wrong but decides to drop it*

So, I went on a bit of a rampage today, my mom was out for the day and I worried or something but my room looks pretty much like a battle sight now. I tore everything off the walls, pulled all my books out, riped up notebooks. It did make me feel better though.

Re: *locked to Marlena*

[identity profile] the-rob-hawkins.livejournal.com 2008-01-27 07:59 am (UTC)(link)
Wow, that is a rampage. Good that it made you feel better though. Maybe you should put it all back then do it again just to be sure. *smiles just a bit*

Re: *locked to Marlena*

[identity profile] diamond-18.livejournal.com 2008-01-27 08:06 am (UTC)(link)
*has a hint of a smirk*

I think that putting it back together would be a bit less fun...a lot less fun actually. I'm sure my mom will do it later. Speaking of which....I NEED TO GET OUT OF HERE!! I can't take my mom trying to make me eat and trying to make me sleep and trying to make me take my pills...those things don't help by the way, they make it all so much worse...and then my parents fight because my dad thinks she is pushing to hard and my mom thinks I'm going to kill myself....in anycase...I need to move...fast.
I talked to my therapist about it and she said it's a bad idea, so i think the sooner...the better. She doesn't know what she is talking about, so I just reverse everything she says. It's been working out.

Re: *locked to Marlena*

[identity profile] the-rob-hawkins.livejournal.com 2008-01-27 08:08 am (UTC)(link)
God I know how you feel. *Reaches a hand up to run it through his hair.* Like I said. You're welcome here. I can give you the address...it might help to be around all of us. What do you think?

Re: *locked to Marlena*

[identity profile] diamond-18.livejournal.com 2008-01-27 08:13 am (UTC)(link)
Yes...I think that is a brilliant idea. I'm going to let you know though....I don't really look....all that together. I mean I'm sure I don't have to tell you this but you know...I don't know....nevermind.

*looks at huge scar on stomach and circles under her eyes*

Time has just done it's toll on me is all.

Re: *locked to Marlena*

[identity profile] the-rob-hawkins.livejournal.com 2008-01-27 08:15 am (UTC)(link)
Its okay. If I look half as bad as Jason is acting like I do, we'll just serve to scare and unnerve the shit out of each other okay? *offers her a small smile*

Re: *locked to Marlena*

[identity profile] diamond-18.livejournal.com 2008-01-27 08:23 am (UTC)(link)
Yea, ok, that could work.

*slightly smiles back but remembers herself and then frowns*

Shit, now your trying to cheer me up. Things are so topsy turvy....I mean, I never use that term, but it explains what is going on. I used to show off my clothes and wear them proudly, now I wear sweats all the time and those barely fit....what happened to us?

Re: *locked to Marlena*

[identity profile] the-rob-hawkins.livejournal.com 2008-01-27 08:27 am (UTC)(link)
Great.

Something fucked up happened to us. Thats what. Thats the only words for it really. I mean come on...that kind of thing only happens in the movies. Thats what I keep thinking. Getting all fixed up kind of seems...I don't know... pointless.

Re: *locked to Marlena*

[identity profile] diamond-18.livejournal.com 2008-01-27 08:31 am (UTC)(link)
I think it is too fucked up for movies. But I get what you mean. But how do you stop yourself from getting all fixed up on it? I just can't seem to figure that out. I still can't get that image of the monster eating....well...everyone out of my head. I mean, how can you forget that sort of thing?

Re: *locked to Marlena*

[identity profile] the-rob-hawkins.livejournal.com 2008-01-27 08:41 am (UTC)(link)
Jason makes it look easy. I wish it was that easy. I don't think I'll ever forget it. I mean seriously though Marlena, do you think we're going to be completely messed up over this for the rest of our lives? Because... I don't know if I can handle that. Don't think you could either.

Re: *locked to Marlena*

[identity profile] diamond-18.livejournal.com 2008-01-27 08:48 am (UTC)(link)
I don't know. I think that sometimes too, when things get really dark, and I try to imagine my life in a few years, or even 10 years, nothing will be the same as I imagined it would be. I can't even imagine the life I will live now, I mean I can't bring myself to eat, I barely sleep, I know the same goes for you. Sometimes I feel like we are the unlucky ones...the ones that survived and that everyone has it backwards beause the truth is how do you go on living after a tragedy?

I try to take it day by day and get happy over small victories. I found you, and Jason, that was a good day. I slept for 5 minutes and didn't wake up screaming. Another good day. I suppose, we just wait, and hope things get better....Even if that option sucks.

[identity profile] slusho-fiend.livejournal.com 2008-01-27 08:51 am (UTC)(link)
*wouldn't exactly say that*

[identity profile] slusho-fiend.livejournal.com 2008-01-27 08:58 am (UTC)(link)
I got why you couldn't before.

[identity profile] the-rob-hawkins.livejournal.com 2008-01-27 08:59 am (UTC)(link)
That wasn't meant for you to see anyway.

[identity profile] slusho-fiend.livejournal.com 2008-01-27 09:05 am (UTC)(link)
It wasn't hidden or anything. But yeah, I know.
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