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[changehistory.livejournal.com]

Love isn't for someone like me.

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[gotbottle]

...love?

[changehistory.livejournal.com]

Yes.

[gotbottle]

I didn't...

It should be me posting that, not you.

[whatdoitakeaway.livejournal.com]

It's not for a lot of people to be honest. Handling that huge of an emotion can wreck you pretty through and through.

[changehistory.livejournal.com]

And yet I blunder into it again and again, expecting it to be different. I'm a fucking idiot.

[whatdoitakeaway.livejournal.com]

Love makes you do stupid things, doesn't make you stupid. And if you're seeing it as blundering into it? Probably not the best way to look at it, even if it is lost.

[icouldtellyouto.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry things aren't going the way you expected Adam. You know if you need anything... you can always ask.

[changehistory.livejournal.com]

It doesn't matter, Eden. Not in the grand scheme of things. There's work that needs doing, and people who need helping, and that matters more than the sorry state of my heart.

I appreciate the offer, but don't...tempt me.

[icouldtellyouto.livejournal.com]

The big picture checking in with you then? I don't mean to be cold you know... I mean. I'm just not overly trusting so you'll forgive me if I ever come off as cutting too close to the quick, but I gave up a lot... we all have. Especially you, so trust me I've been tempted to forgo your permission.

I wouldn't though. Not after everything you've given me.

[hofficoffi.livejournal.com]

Funny how that sounds familiar.

ooc: ...sorry, couldn't resist. :D

[changehistory.livejournal.com]

Does it?


ooc: LOL. Jack's Adam is glaring at this one and wanting to hit him. Lots.

[hofficoffi.livejournal.com]

Bit too much for comfort, yeah.

ooc: *griiiiins*

[sawtroyfall.livejournal.com]

You have my sympathy, sir.

[changehistory.livejournal.com]

My thanks, madam, though I need more to just accept this fact than look for sympathy.

[sawtroyfall.livejournal.com]

Yes... Those who are not meant for love should accept it.

She paused for a moment and gave a faint smile, though it didn't reach her eyes. But we rarely do.. don't we?

[hornrimmed.livejournal.com]

It's a tough one.

[changehistory.livejournal.com]

It's a pointless exercise in futility.

[seeker-ofspirit.livejournal.com]

Wow. This makes me feel so sad inside. Why do you think love isn't for someone like you? Why shouldn't love be for someone like you?

[changehistory.livejournal.com]

Because I spectacularly fail at making it work.

Because I lose, am betrayed, am abandoned, even when I do everything right.

Because I have a world to run, and no one can understand what that means, and I am wasting far too much time being depressed over things that cannot matter. The survival of humanity is on my shoulders. I cannot spend my days crying over the state of my frequently abused heart.

It's time to just accept it, move on, and focus on the things that are important.

[thecricketer.livejournal.com]

Love is for everyone.

[changehistory.livejournal.com]

No, not anymore. Not again.

[domina-mira.livejournal.com]

Romantic, or in general? Either way it doesn't seem to pay much attention to whether or not someone is deserving.

[changehistory.livejournal.com]

Mostly romantic. And it certainly seems to have decided I am unworthy.

[youngerpetrelli]

...why not?

What did I do wrong?

[changehistory.livejournal.com]

I don't know why not, but I've reached the conclusion in reviewing the way my relationships have gone for 400 years and how, inevitably, they end in me being betrayed or abandoned. Never can have just an amicable, "It's not working out" break up. Oh, no.

Nothing. This has nothing to do with you, though you'll probably run off with someone else eventually anyway.