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[heroicpotential.livejournal.com]

What's thirty-ish years compared to eternity?

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[mabofwinterdark.livejournal.com]

Everything or nothing. Depending on how you use them.

[heroicpotential.livejournal.com]

Or something in between. To her they could be everything.

[mabofwinterdark.livejournal.com]

Then you have no choice, do you?

[heroicpotential.livejournal.com]

Oh, I have one. I could say mememememe, knowing he'd abandon her and she'd spend her remaining years alone.

[mabofwinterdark.livejournal.com]

But would you still be yourself at the end of it? Eternity is a long time for regret.

[accursed-youth.livejournal.com]

Eternity is far too long.

[heroicpotential.livejournal.com]

Don't have much choice in that.

[accursed-youth.livejournal.com]

Nor do I.

[heroicpotential.livejournal.com]

... Oh god, I'm sorry.

[accursed-youth.livejournal.com]

It is not yours to apologize for, sir. It becomes easier to cope, I promise.

[deep-red-bells.livejournal.com]

Eternity > thirty years, I'd say. Sorry, really not trying to be a smartassthis time, just not quite sure I understand the question.

[heroicpotential.livejournal.com]

In a nutshell? I care about someone and the other person that cares about them is already sixty. They might have thirty years left. I have much longer.

[deep-red-bells.livejournal.com]

...Oh, that just blows. :(

[heroicpotential.livejournal.com]

That's how I feel about it, yeah. I could be selfish and put my foot down but... but maybe the right thing isn't to do that, you know?

[and-twosyllable.livejournal.com]

...A hell of a lot I guess.

[heroicpotential.livejournal.com]

Yeah, it really is.

[and-twosyllable.livejournal.com]

Are you talking about you - and older you, Peter?

[heroicpotential.livejournal.com]

...

NO!

I... NO!

I just went wrong places there. About the person I love loving someone else as well and that other person only have maybe thirty years left to live and maybe the right thing to do is let her live them with him.

[justshade.livejournal.com]

Big difference. One's only 30 years - one's forever.

[heroicpotential.livejournal.com]

One's my life span, and one's the remaining life span of someone I care about. Someone who would be hurt by me being selfish.

[justshade.livejournal.com]

Hurt comes and goes. Especially over eternity.

[changehistory.livejournal.com]

And what if you don't have eternity? What if it doesn't work that way?

[heroicpotential.livejournal.com]

I don't know. I just... How can I call myself a son, or a hero, and betray her like this? How can I even think, for a moment, of not being with you? How can I... anything. I don't know.

[changehistory.livejournal.com]

You make me try to be a better person, Peter. Isn't that ... you give me a reason to try to be different, to not give in to everything in me demanding things that you would never ... condone. So, are you betraying her, or are you saving me?

[heroicpotential.livejournal.com]

Is that what you want? Nathan asked me if that would make me happy, being with you, so I ask you. Is this making you happy?