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It's too...what? We're grown men. The Matrix is on. Our man points are overflowing. And, I don't know...why I'm okay with this... [lies, lies, lies] Why are you not? [deflect! deflect! deflect!]

Don't forget about the beer...

It's not who I am. I'm all about the women. [ finishes off his beer and reaches for another ] It's just too different, too... strange.

Right, beer!

...Nothing's happened. [sighs] And just - not to rub salt in those wounds but guys who say "I'm all about the women?" -- yeah, been there. [he pauses] The summer after high school I went on this road trip, this self-discovery see all 50 states thing. And yes, they broke the news to me about Alaska and Hawaii considering I was in my Uncle Rory's Cad. Anyway, car broke down in Oxnard and I had to wash dishes at the Fabulous Ladies Nightclub. One day one of the dancers was sick and one thing led to another....anyway, I was there all summer and, and the bartender befriended me. And, and the guy kissed me. And it was before I left and it didn't change my life but -- sexuality is, what, who we feel attracted to? [he was confusing himself] OK, I think, my point...being -- you had what, two relationships? I've had one real relationship. We're young and -- we're young. And because of that we're -- we haven't had the chance to -- so it flopped with Buffy and that's...and I had Anya but, what, our hands brush, you fall ontop of me -- is that really DefCon one?

[ Riley just sits and stares at Xander as he rambles, trying to keep up. He wants to interject somewhere, but he doesn't know where, or what to say. ]

You kissed another guy? [ okay, totally not the point, but Riley needs to take this one step at a time ] No, it's not DefCon one, it's just confusing. I... [ he covers his face again, wondering if the moment could get any more awkward and embarrassing for him ] I think I am attracted to you.

[ and this is Riley, practically squirming in his seat with embarassment, wishing he could just leave the room, if not the planet ]

[he might not have seen that exact thing coming but, he doesn't hate the news, and yeah, he's kissed another guy before, that being the only guy he has kissed and then, what else can he say?]

You are?

[ dropping his hand, Riley lifts his head and looks at Xander, and that was about all he could take ] I can't - [ with that he stands, beer bottle still in hand as he moves past Xander and heads for the door ]

[he stays seated, watching him, sighs, is he going to turn around?]

[ pausing at the door, his hand on the doorknob, Riley looks over his shoulder ]

[Xander stands, slowly moving around the couch towards him]

[ he looks away, but otherwise doesn't move ]

[reaching him, he puts a hand on Riley's shoulder, only one, standing behind him, just feeling him breath, the moment very intimate]

[ he stands still for a few moments before he takes a deep breath and turns around to face Xander. trying not to think about it too much, he reaches out and takes hold of the back of the other man's head, bringing him into a kiss ]

[his hand comes to Riley's waist as he welcomes the kiss, his eyes falling closed]

[ when Xander doesn't pull away, Riley's eyes fall closed as well, deepening the kiss a little as his heart races in his chest ]

[ biting at his lower lip, Xander then pulls back, licking his lips ] OK, this - I like it. It's -- wow. But, I know where you are and how much is, yeah so, I'm giving you time. You know? So... [he leans in, kissing him softly again] When you are...when you are...just lemme know.

No rush.

And you know where I live.

[giving him a smile, he retreated back to the coffee table to move popcorn to the kitchen, keeping some eye contact with Riley...giving Riley a view of his ass]

[ he opens his eyes as Xander pulls away, a little confused until the other man starts speaking, and then he's not sure if he's relieved or annoyed ] I -- [ he pauses, because he doesn't know how that sentence was supposed to end, so he nods ] Thanks.

[ he watches Xander quietly, smirking and looking away when Xander 'just happens' to give him view of his ass and then he lets out a breath ]

When I'm ready. [ he shakes his head somewhat, not even sure if he'll ever be ready, and then he leaves to go clear his head ]