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[alwaysthequeenb.livejournal.com]

You would say I'm thin, right?

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[alwaysthequeenb.livejournal.com]

There's always breast implants if it ever bothers you.

Um, well. [ She doesn't ever really talk about this ever. ] You ever had a pair of jeans that were perfect and amazing and you just didn't fit into them, barely?

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[autophoenix.livejournal.com]

It doesn't bother me that badly.

Uh, yeah? I guess? That's when you buy the next size up.

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[alwaysthequeenb.livejournal.com]

That's a good thing, really. It might throw off your proportions.

I don't like to allow myself to buy the next size up.

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[autophoenix.livejournal.com]

Yeah, even if my proportions are those of a ten-year-old boy, I'd rather they all match each other.

... Why would you buy uncomfortable clothes over a stupid number?

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[alwaysthequeenb.livejournal.com]

Exactly. You wouldn't want huge breasts that don't even out.

...I make it so they aren't so uncomfortable. And it's not just a number, it's how you look.

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[autophoenix.livejournal.com]

[Claire is starting to catch on because apparently she collects bulimic friends.] ... By dieting, right?

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[alwaysthequeenb.livejournal.com]

[ Well. Blair hasn't done it in a while. ] Define dieting.

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[autophoenix.livejournal.com]

... Blair, why would you do that to yourself? You are so beautiful, regardless of whether you can squeeze in a size 2 or a size 7.

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[alwaysthequeenb.livejournal.com]

Tell that to everyone else, Claire. Tell that to my mother, to Nate back when we dated, tell that to everyone.

It's something I can control, okay, I can control my body, even if my life is in shambles.

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[autophoenix.livejournal.com]

[That earns a tight, sudden hug.]

I understand. [After all, when that happens to Claire, she just ... kills herself instead.] I understand, but it's even more important when you're having a rough time to be healthy and not use that control to hurt yourself. Other people hurt us enough.

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[alwaysthequeenb.livejournal.com]

[ Blair just hugs back, unable to do much else. ]

But some people hurt you because they want you to be perfect. And the only way I can be perfect is through that. It's a weakness I have.

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[autophoenix.livejournal.com]

Blair, listen to me. [She moves to take Blair's face in her hands, staring very firmly up into her eyes.] You're perfect no matter what dress size you can fit into, okay?

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[alwaysthequeenb.livejournal.com]

[ Blair meets Claire's gaze and nods slowly, trying to believe her, but she just...can't. For the sake of having her not worry though, she's just going to act like she believes her. ] Okay. I'm perfect no matter what dress size I fit into. [ Gives her a slightly tense smile. ]

I haven't done it a while, though.


[[I thought you were going to post with Chuck this afternoon. :3]]

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[autophoenix.livejournal.com]

Good. That's really good, B. [She gets another hug for that because Claire doesn't know how to fix self esteem issues.]

[ooc; I AM. I need to do that before I go to class. /does.]