So, protective. Don't break him. We've barely met.
No, they don't. Buffy, she doesn't. Whatever you saw, that's not real. You know your mom died from something you couldn't change. You couldn't fight. Hell here -- twisted that.
And what about Eve? What about the rest of the girls who died back in Sunnydale? And everyone before the First, and everyone after we left. Except for Mom, how are they not my fault? How is your eye being gone not my fault? Every time you guys have been in danger, even after the global army - when the hell hasn't it been my fault?
[ She swallows, clenching her jaw. She's strong, she can handle this, and she knows it. But it's keeping her awake at night. Nightmares, ghosts of what happened to her down there. ]
I haven't slept more than fifteen minutes at a time since I got back. They're still there. And they had physical form, Xander.
[ Lifting up her shirt a bit, she reveals the scars - some look like stitches, others like hands... they're fading, healing quickly (though slower than her usual)... but they're still there. ]
They're everywhere. I can't do anything without seeing them, or hearing them. It's like they've latched onto me, and held on, and they're not letting go.
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[ She listens, quietly, then turns and hugs him. Tight. Not tight enough to Slayer-style break him, but... still tight. ]
All of them blame me. Every last one of them.
[ Her voice gets even quieter. ]
Even Mom.
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No, they don't. Buffy, she doesn't. Whatever you saw, that's not real. You know your mom died from something you couldn't change. You couldn't fight. Hell here -- twisted that.
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[ She swallows, clenching her jaw. She's strong, she can handle this, and she knows it. But it's keeping her awake at night. Nightmares, ghosts of what happened to her down there. ]
I haven't slept more than fifteen minutes at a time since I got back. They're still there. And they had physical form, Xander.
[ Lifting up her shirt a bit, she reveals the scars - some look like stitches, others like hands... they're fading, healing quickly (though slower than her usual)... but they're still there. ]
They wanted to kill me. Take revenge on me.
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They're everywhere. I can't do anything without seeing them, or hearing them. It's like they've latched onto me, and held on, and they're not letting go.
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[ She just... keeps in that tight, tight hugging. ]
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[ There's a small chuckle. ]
... Let's just not go there.
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[ He...won't let this go. ]
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I don't tell you I love you enough.
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[ Smiles. ]