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[torndownsoldier.livejournal.com]

"So what are we dealin' with?"

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[carmen-porter.livejournal.com]

*Removing herself from him once more she spoke.* What you trying to say, Dean?

[torndownsoldier.livejournal.com]

I'm not the man you know, I'm not that Dean.

[carmen-porter.livejournal.com]

*She shakes her head at that.* I didn't... I never said you were.

[torndownsoldier.livejournal.com]

I jus' don't think y'should've pinned your hopes on findin' me.

Are you planning on doing any verses with your muse?

[carmen-porter.livejournal.com]

*She lifts her hand to get him to look up at her, wanting to make sure she's getting what he means.* Are you saying that you want me to forget I ever found you?

I hadn't thought much on it to be honest

[torndownsoldier.livejournal.com]

I don't live the life o' normal people, Carmen. It gets pretty fucked up around me, I don't think y'should even bother.

I also play foxy_haley and there's a verse I wanted to ask you to look at. Would you mind?

[carmen-porter.livejournal.com]

You think that after I watched you kill yourself, I wouldn't understand how much different your life is compared to mine, a normal person wouldn't do that.

okay! I can take a little look but I don't know what m'doing with this Dean yet.

[torndownsoldier.livejournal.com]

[Gruffly] It's a crap storm out there. I don't want nobody else bein' involved.

Thank you and no problem. Feel free to tell me what you think

[carmen-porter.livejournal.com]

So your expecting me just to forget that you exist, forget what we went through... Together.

okay :)

[torndownsoldier.livejournal.com]

Maybe. Maybe it'd be best.

:) The verse is still being sorted out between myself and notyetcynical along with some OTH muses

[carmen-porter.livejournal.com]

*Carmen lets out a gentle sob.* That's what you really want?

[torndownsoldier.livejournal.com]

It'd keep you safe.

Do you think you'd be up for it after a little thought or?

[carmen-porter.livejournal.com]

Could you not teach me? I've spent this long without you... Please don't make me wait any longer.

I'm replying on a phone which makes checking hard but I'll look later on :D

[torndownsoldier.livejournal.com]

[turning away] No, I don't think I can.

Okay. Sorry! :p

[carmen-porter.livejournal.com]

*As he turns away she grabs his arm, tugging on it just that bit too much.* You can't or won't?

no no, that's cool. I'll look soon.

[torndownsoldier.livejournal.com]

Won't. [He doesn't really look at her] The world's big an' nasty out there an' I don't want to run the risk o' fucking anyone else up.

If you like the idea we can give it a trial period if you want.

[carmen-porter.livejournal.com]

*She laughs at the fact he's not looking at her.* Your scared of looking at me cause you know the minute you do you'll change your mind.

sure. I'll message you :)

[torndownsoldier.livejournal.com]

[Dean raises his eyes to meet hers] I don't want to be the reason you die, Carmen. Now s'best we drop this crap.

Thanks. I appreciate it,

[carmen-porter.livejournal.com]

Who said anything about dying? I won't let it drop, Dean. *Moving over to him she cupped his chin with her hand.* Tell me you don't want me.

had a little look and I don't really think the verse fits in with how I'm playing Dean. I'm sorry.

[torndownsoldier.livejournal.com]

[gruffly] I don't. I don't want anyone.

Don't worry. Me and notyetcynical have found a Dean but thanks for taking a look.

[carmen-porter.livejournal.com]

*She gets out a pen and a pad, writing down her number before giving it to him.* If you ever change your mind, call and we'll go out for coffee or something.

[torndownsoldier.livejournal.com]

[he takes the paper and nods] Right.