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"So what are we dealin' with?"

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[torndownsoldier.livejournal.com]

[Dean doesn't know if he can quite believe it but he does lower the gun he's been holding] Carmen?

[carmen-porter.livejournal.com]

*She can't help but notice the gun, at first she'd been unsure it was him , she'd been looking for him for so long that she'd started to lose hope but now... Things were different.*

It's me, baby.

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[He's not really sure how to deal with this, the fact that she could be real. Stowing his gun back under his jacket he gives her the ghost of a smile]

[carmen-porter.livejournal.com]

*Not knowing what to say had never been a weakness for her but seeing Dean like this made her... speechless, making her way over to him she stopped a few centimetres away, giving themselves some time to adjust.*

[torndownsoldier.livejournal.com]

I - How?

[carmen-porter.livejournal.com]

*Moving closer to him, she cups his cheek.* I was always real, Dean. You just had to find me.

[torndownsoldier.livejournal.com]

[Dean doesn't move away from her touch, but he doesn't lean into it either, still frowning] So what, y'joined me in the Matrix experience? Saw everythin' I did?

[carmen-porter.livejournal.com]

*In a way she's thankful he didn't lean in just in case he disappeared again, her other hand reaches up to try and take away the creases on his forehead.*

I'm not quite sure, Dean. I don't... Just remember dreaming of you.

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[He steps out of her reach at that, frowning again only this time he seems slightly panicked. It's been years for him and he barely knew here]

Listen, Carmen. It's been years. Lifetimes.

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*Carmen notices him panicking and starts doing so herself, taking a second she gently pulls her hair.*

You think I don't know that, that I haven't spent every day trying to find you?

[torndownsoldier.livejournal.com]

[Dean rubs a hand over his face before fixing her with a look] Why?

[carmen-porter.livejournal.com]

*She sobs gently at that, moving backwards to get away from him, if only for a few seconds.*

What you did... Leaving your mom and the life you wanted behind was so noble of you that within that moment I knew I had to find you.

[torndownsoldier.livejournal.com]

It wasn't noble. I jus' knew it wasn't real. That my brother needed me.

[carmen-porter.livejournal.com]

*Moving back towards him she takes his hand, entwining their fingers together.*

That's not true and you know it. You could have stayed but you didn't you stood your ground and within that moment I fell in love with you, Dean.

[torndownsoldier.livejournal.com]

Darling, it's been years.

[carmen-porter.livejournal.com]

*Removing herself from him once more she spoke.* What you trying to say, Dean?

[torndownsoldier.livejournal.com]

I'm not the man you know, I'm not that Dean.

[carmen-porter.livejournal.com]

*She shakes her head at that.* I didn't... I never said you were.

[torndownsoldier.livejournal.com]

I jus' don't think y'should've pinned your hopes on findin' me.

Are you planning on doing any verses with your muse?

[carmen-porter.livejournal.com]

*She lifts her hand to get him to look up at her, wanting to make sure she's getting what he means.* Are you saying that you want me to forget I ever found you?

I hadn't thought much on it to be honest

[torndownsoldier.livejournal.com]

I don't live the life o' normal people, Carmen. It gets pretty fucked up around me, I don't think y'should even bother.

I also play foxy_haley and there's a verse I wanted to ask you to look at. Would you mind?

[carmen-porter.livejournal.com]

You think that after I watched you kill yourself, I wouldn't understand how much different your life is compared to mine, a normal person wouldn't do that.

okay! I can take a little look but I don't know what m'doing with this Dean yet.

[torndownsoldier.livejournal.com]

[Gruffly] It's a crap storm out there. I don't want nobody else bein' involved.

Thank you and no problem. Feel free to tell me what you think

[carmen-porter.livejournal.com]

So your expecting me just to forget that you exist, forget what we went through... Together.

okay :)

[torndownsoldier.livejournal.com]

Maybe. Maybe it'd be best.