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[seestheglimmer.livejournal.com]

D'you consider affairs while undercover, cheating?

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[bingo-faced.livejournal.com]

[He nods.] So, does worryin' about it now help? I would think you'd want to refrain from worryin' yourself until you knew whether you had to tell him or not.

[seestheglimmer.livejournal.com]

No. I suppose it doesn't. But I still have to live with the guilt.

[Guilt from the multiple repercussions of what she's doing.]

[bingo-faced.livejournal.com]

[Frowns.] Does it make sense to feel guilty over somethin' you had no control over? Could you have refused the... mission, or whatever it was?

[seestheglimmer.livejournal.com]

[Shakes her head.]

Not exactly. [In fact, she's the only person in two universes who could do this mission.] But I could have chosen to play the part differently maybe. I could have found another way to earn his trust.

[bingo-faced.livejournal.com]

That sounds more like regret than guilt.

[seestheglimmer.livejournal.com]

I don't really regret it because so far it's working.

But I feel guilty for having to resort to it.

[bingo-faced.livejournal.com]

That's a shame. It's hard to be put into situations like that. [And he's not so sure he's being much help, on top of that.] Wish there was somethin' I could say to make it all easier.

[seestheglimmer.livejournal.com]

[Shrugs.]

I don't expect that. I wouldn't be in the position I'm in if I expected everything to be easy. I know I have an important mission and I'm going to complete it no matter what.

[bingo-faced.livejournal.com]

Good for you! [It's a great philosophy -- one he very much agrees with and abides by... usually to a fault.]

[seestheglimmer.livejournal.com]

Thanks.

[She's absolutely determined not to screw this up, to let what Newton said about her to be correct. She's stronger than that.]

I guess I just have to suck it up.

[bingo-faced.livejournal.com]

Right. Well, best of luck, yeah?

[seestheglimmer.livejournal.com]

[Nods.]

I appreciate it.