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[killmeinstead.livejournal.com]

I'm a terrible friend and mother.

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[pinkhairedauror.livejournal.com]

That is not TRUE! You gave your LIFE for Harry!

He'll be OK. I hope the other things works out. Somehow. Too.

ooc: *had to say these*

[killmeinstead.livejournal.com]

And maybe it shouldn't have been given back, I only seem to screw up. The look in his eyes...I don't mean that, of course. I'm very glad to be able to see him, to touch him to have some chance and caring for him.

I feel so wrong. Empty.

[pinkhairedauror.livejournal.com]

*nods* It's good to be back, most definitely. Don't let yourself think of what went wrong. Think of how to go on. Pick up the pieces... and all of that.

Oh... They were both so extremely upset at seeing you cry. They think you're angry at them.

ooc: And Tonks promised not to tell where they are, and sorry but atm she's gushy as her mum just passed her Teddy, for the first time after the Battle...

[killmeinstead.livejournal.com]

I don't know where he is. He and Sirius. They're just children right now, I don't...*breathes* I want to leave, but I can't. I have to stay at Grimmauld Place in case they come back. I just...

I am. But I'm more worried than anything.

((Pfft. Lily's having a fit.))

[pinkhairedauror.livejournal.com]

Where would you want to go?

Calm down. Even at nine, they're not... too careless.

OOC: After what happened? Especially after both Harry and Snape leaving? I'd be having one too!

[thelionharted.livejournal.com]

You are not, Lils, don't be ridiculous.

[killmeinstead.livejournal.com]

Oh, Merlin I am, James. *shakes and is wracked with a fresh wave of sobs*

Harry ran away, and Padfoot is gone and Severus...he called me a...*looks broken*

[thelionharted.livejournal.com]

*walks over and holds her tight*

He ran away? What happened?

[killmeinstead.livejournal.com]

He was...He was upset. He called out Severus on the time we'd been spending together, I told him to step down, things escalated and we were all fighting and I started crying, I told them to stop. Severus left, and Harry did too. I don't know where Harry is.

I want to go home...I want my house in the Hollow.

[no-black-sheep.livejournal.com]

Hello Lily. It's been a long time.

*smiles gently*

This is completely apropos of nothing mind you... but I just ran into the most adorable little boys. One looked a good deal like James did as a boy. The other reminded me of my favorite cousin.

I think anyone wishing to run into them again could find them at Nymphadora's cottage.

*more serious*

They're a bit wound up and you are of course upset. Perhaps a little more time would be in order? Especially since they are quite safe.

[killmeinstead.livejournal.com]

*this, Andromeda, is a look of complete and total relief and a mirthless laugh, eyes shining, just a bit*

Oh, is that so?

*nods, wiping her eyes* Of course. If they're with the Lupins I know they're safe. Thank you for telling me, Andromeda.

[no-black-sheep.livejournal.com]

Us mothers have to stick together otherwise we are simply outnumbered!

Children don't know the blind panic a parent feels when they cannot find their child.

So breathe a little bit easier and think of it as free babysitting!

I brought enough food to feed all the children of Hogwarts and decks of exploding snap and chocolate frogs. I think it should be enough to keep them entertained for a bit

[killmeinstead.livejournal.com]

Too true. I've never felt so cold.

*laughs a bit, and combs back her hair* I owe you and Tonks. Thank you, Andromeda. Tell them that you've seen Lily and that she misses them, that it's safe to return whenever they are ready.

[iamtheirreason.livejournal.com]

I'm sure that's not true.

[killmeinstead.livejournal.com]

He ran away from home.

[iamtheirreason.livejournal.com]

My boys haven't been home in... ages. Unfortunately they have a car so when they run they get quite far.

[killmeinstead.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry. I only just got my baby back. I died and we were going to be a family but I screwed it up.

[sayshisname.livejournal.com]

You are not. I'm a git. I'm sorry, Mum. I really am.

[killmeinstead.livejournal.com]

You're not a git, sweetie. *sighs and opens her arms for him*

[sayshisname.livejournal.com]

Yes, I am. I'm trying to make it right. *hugs her tightly, buries his face in her shoulder* I didn't mean to make you cry, Mum.

[killmeinstead.livejournal.com]

Sweetheart. No, you're not a git. You're emotional and I deserved it. When you're your proper age again I think we need to talk about this...*hugs him and rocks him* It's okay. i went to see Petunia and I calmed down.

[duel-to-kill.livejournal.com]

Don't be daft, girl.

[killmeinstead.livejournal.com]

Minerva. *a little weakly* He ran away. He thinks Sev and I are too close and it all just...blew up in my face.

[duel-to-kill.livejournal.com]

*sighing, she drops an arm around Lily's shoulders* He's a child, Lily - more than that, he's Harry Potter. He has a knack for making things... blow up. But I'm going to let you in on a little secret about children: they need you just as much as you need them. Maybe more. Give him some time to cool off, and I'm sure things will be all right.

[killmeinstead.livejournal.com]

*leans against her* I know he is. But he wasn't supposed to run away from me over...Merlin, he's jealous of a Potions Master it's all so complex and it shouldn't be. He has all these memories from being older and he's trapped in a child's body and has the demeanor...

Though I suppose I should be grateful. If he were eighteen he'd be yelling at me and ignoring me.