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Okay... what's up, Rach?

[Taking his hands in her own, Rachel sits them down]

I think we're both fooling ourselves about us, we..we're not really happy. Sam, I-I feel like I'm drowning here, I'm doing nothing all day and it's killing and I know you know I'm pulling away from you.

We can't keep on like this because I know I'll end up walking out that door, and I don't want to live my life without you.

Oh. Well... I've tried talking but... you're not happy at all, are you?

Yes and no. Being with you and Grace makes me happy, so does this baby we're having, but not working, not doing what I've always wanted to do.. And when I was in New York working on stage or singing or anything like that I was happy, but I was so alone.

I just need to some how get those two worlds working together. All I do it sit at home and waste the days away, or end up scrubbing this house top to bottom because I don't have anything else to do here. Sam, I need you and I need Gracie, but I still need to be a star. How can I want two different things in two different worlds so badly, and know losing either would kill me.

Rachel... I told you I'd look into a move to New York and you kept telling me no. Are you saying you want me to look into that again?

Because I didn't want to screw up your life again. I still don't.

What I'm saying is we should talk about this, talk about all the options.

Well, what options do you think we have?

Honestly I don't know. None that I can think of that wont end up messing up yours or Graces life.

Then maybe we should look at us moving to New York. I... might need some help affording a new shop at first but I'd make sure it didn't go to waste.

[A small smile played on her lips and she leaned in close] You can have all my money for all I care, as long as I have you and Grace, and I can work too.

[She kissed him then, much like the ways she'd kissed him when they'd first got together. Love filled and happy, so different from how she'd been the past few weeks]

It's gonna cost a lot to move. *He was scared but a sacrifice had to be made. Grace was young enough to move schools and - hopefully - not be too affected, as concerned as he was for that. But when she kissed him, Sam returned it gently.*

I don't care how much it costs. [When he kissed her back she wrapped her arms around him, so happy that he was the way he was. Ever so slowly she pulled back] We're going to have to talk to Grace first.

*He was glad of that. Because he knew it would be expensive, very expensive. He had money, but not nearly enough.* Yeah, we are.

And tell her about the baby too. [She pulled back and stroked his cheek softly, her eyes fixing on his.] Sam, everything I have is yours too. You're giving me the two, no three things I want in my life, you can take all the money I have as long as I can have my family with me.

Yeah, yeah of course. *He let out a low breath then and though he hated to use her money, because he was proud of how he'd taken care of his family and himself since high school, he slowly nodded.* Thank you.

[And Rachel sort of owed him. But money wasn't important to her, love was. And if she had to give up all her money to be with him and Grace, she would.]

I'm sorry, for neglecting you Sam, I really am.

It's... you know, it's okay. It's the past, Rachel.

You amaze me, you're always so forgiving when I mess up. I still don't understand why you want me. [And she's just going to kiss him softly]

It's because I love you, Rachel.

I don't deserve you Sam.

Don't think like that, baby. Please?

We both know it's the truth, but I'll stop saying it, I promise you.

Thank you.

What are you thanking me for?