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Always a dangerous and scary thought, huh?

Oh, totally. I feel really excited? But I feel kinda sick at the same time.

Sick because what if it doesn't and what if it's just you and what if you lose it even if it does happen...

Or is that just me?

No, that about sums it up.

I just... I don't take to people so quickly, or trust so easily. And this person I've met, well, he's gotten past all that. And it scares me. It makes me hopeful, but then, like you said, what if it's just me?

Yeah, it's a sucky feeling. I sort of know that the one I could let myself fall with? It's only one sided. It sucks.

Oh, no. I'm so sorry. That really has to hurt.

Naw, don't be sorry. I told Carrick not to be. I mean, I knew it wouldn't ever be anything.

Yeah, but even if you knew... that totally still has to be hard.

...Um. You know a guy named Carrick?

You deal with it. How life is, you know?

Oh just some guy I met around here. We've lamented our love life situation. You know how it goes. Kind of like this.

Oh, I'm Lucy, by the way.

I guess. Good for you for being tough, and not sitting around and letting it make you a victim or anything.

I'm Rachel. It's nice to meet you, Lucy.

So which side of the fence did he fall on? Good story to share, or needed a shoulder?

I've been through worse than having some childish fantasy trashed.

Oh he was telling me it took him thirty years and I couldn't give up.

I think that happens to all of us. Some people just take it a lot better, and deal a lot better.

Really. Thirty years for what?

Yeah, I guess. Maybe I am.

To find the right person. He was telling me how I shouldn't give up hope.

I think you are.

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Huh. Well. It's, like, nice when people can be encouraging, right? That's... nice of him.

*not hopeful at all, no*

Did he say how he knew? Maybe that would help my situation.

Thank you. A lot. Funny everyone sees it but me.

He was saying that she just made him feel hopeful and mental. That was it. Because, well, he's English and said I was mental over this guy. I guess it's a better word than crush or something, right? So he said he was mental over this girl but that unlike me and all, he was thinking he had a chance. And that she talks as much as I do. Sorry for babbling.

I think that's the way with a lot of our good qualities. We don't see them, but others do.

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I, um.

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Well, that's... that's nice that he can feel so hopeful. That's...

And I understand totally. It's okay. I do it sometimes too, when I'm, like, totally nervous.

It gives me a chance to think, it really does. I've been having issues with my hope, I guess.

I don't usually but I get to talking about someone and... babble.

You can't... wow. Okay. You can't give up hope. Not ever. I think I'm learning that tonight.

But you understand feeling like you should, right? Besides, sometimes? Some things? You have to.

Yeah, Lucy. I do. 'Cause I've been there, too.

To be honest, I figured I was in for, like, more of the same, with this.

Some dreams you have to give up on. It's easier.

Yeah. I guess so.

But if there's hope... some things are totally worth fighting for. I hope you find that sometime, too.

Yeah, me too. Maybe one day.

I'm sure it will. I mean, geez, if it can happen for me, it can happen for anyone.