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That's what they say. I don't believe it though.

I don’t think I believe it anymore, either.

I’ve been hurting for awhile now, and the pain seems like it’s not going anywhere.

It's been a year for me, and I can still feel the bullet going into my stomach.

It's been over six months for me. I can tolerate the physical pain, but the mental plain is unbearable.

It depends what you're working through, and even then it can vary from one day to the next. You just have to take every day as it comes.

But, sometimes it's too overwhelming.

It may seem that way, but, I think you'll find you're stronger then you think you are. Do you want to talk about it?

I've been trying to be.

Sure. I would like to, but I'm assuming that I'll have to pay you after, right?

No. *He smiles and shakes his head.* I'm a medical doctor, not a psychiatrist, but, I've been through some things myself so, maybe I can help.

It’s nice to know that you actually care.

Six months ago, I lost my fiancée in an accident. Since then, my life has gone downhill. I have a suicide attempt under my belt, and several regrets.

I can understand how you feel,but suicide isn't the answer, no matter how much you miss them. *Luka drew a slow breath before continuing.*

I lost my wife, my five year old daughter, and my 18 month old son all on the same day. I always thought if there had been a way for me to join them I would have taken it, I know in those early weeks I prayed for death to find me, I couldn't imagine how I could live without them. *He paused, letting his words settle around them.*

It isn't easy, but, each day hurts a little less than the one before.

I-I don’t know what to say. I’m sorry.

That's all right, there isn't really much anyone can say, and I'm sure you probably feel the same way. No amount of I'm sorry's will bring them back or take away the pain of losing them, but people don't know what else to say. *Luka's words were quiet and surprisingly devoid of emotion.*

I lost my family during the war, and the way I dealt with the loss of them was by leaving. I didn't want to be around the reminders of them and so I left my Country, and my family and friends. You have to find the way of dealing with the loss though that works for you.