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Wanna talk about it?

No.

Talk about the weather instead.

One of these days you're going to stop shutting me out Fia. We can't work completely if you keep doing that.

Have we ever worked completely? I mean, outside of the bedroom, have we ever really got it together?

Aren't we supposed to be trying too? Baby please, I don't want to fight but I do want to be able to be here for you. Don't shut me out, help me understand.

I don’t know what we are trying for, anymore.
What do you want to understand? How it felt burying Aodh and Conn next to Eothian? Or, how it felt being held while having to watch them hurt Fin? Or, having to leave you because I messed up?

Yes you do, you know why we try. [And if he didn't, the feel of Albert's lips on his own might remind him.]

Hey, we both fucked up before and you left, it wasn't just you, it was us and we're past that now. [Slowly he nodded his head] Yes, if talking about it is going to help you, and is going to help us. I know you try hard to keep that part of your life from me, but it's eating you up inside and I can't lose you again. Bella and I need you.

*The tension seemed to drain from him at the reminder. He pulled back to give some space and pay attention to the conversation at hand.*

We’ve enough problems with out my issues adding to them. *Soft sigh.* How is Bella?

Your issues are part of our life, they are already here. Keeping them to yourself puts up a wall between us when we are trying to break them down.

[He smiles] She's getting so big already, and when you and I are a little more settled I want us to adopt her.. if you're willing to. Mom reminded me that her and dad will still be apart of their lives and she's at the age where she wants grandchildren now.

Some walls need to stay up for my sanity. How about we just talk about Bella, okay?

I guess that’s why Jimmy left her with us, I figure he knew we’d take care of Bella eventually seen as my gender makes it impossible for us to have a baby. So do we talk about what ‘settled’ means? I think we talked about something more than the penthouse.

[A brush of his lips against Fia's jaw and he nods his head before sitting down] If you need to talk I'll listen.

Our gender [he said with a soft laugh] After all neither of us can carry kids.. [and he looked Fia over before laughing even more, it was obvious where he mind was going. Big, manly Fia, pregnant. Oh god what an image.] Yes, somewhere with a garden, somewhere we could maybe have a pet someday... something a little along the lines of the home I grew up in?

*Playfully nudges Al with his shoulder at the laugh. Familiar enough with Al to know where his thoughts went.* I could insist you do all the work, now that would be an image. Sad that we both can father children and have to adopt in the end, but I think Bella will be like our own.

Sounds idyllic. You. Me. The baby. A pet. White picket fence house. No gods. No goblins. No wicked step mommy henchmen. Just us.

[He laughed again] You wouldn't be able to handle me pregnant, I'd be demanding, want sex all the time and get upset if I didn't have all your attention... oh wait, that's no different from now. [But he was smiling, only teasing really.] I don't care that we have to adopt, any child we have will be loved no matter who their real parents are. And if we ever feel the need to have a child of our blood, one of us will be when we find a suitable surrogate.

Just a scary mother in law instead, and I think there will be at least one goblin... We can't stop Brea's... boyfriend? Partner? Lover? Slave? Companion maybe??? Well Hawken has to be allowed in to play too.. He can't be expected to wait outside like a naughty boy.

And there you were thinking I wouldn’t be able to handle you pregnant. *He shook his head.* Not really something I want to ever see on either of us, adoption is a different matter, we both have enough love to make any child feel loved and safe. I want that most for Bella ---for you.

I haven’t really spoken much to Brea or Hawken lately, they really are together still? Coloured me surprised I’d thought she’d kick his coffee, smoking, goblin ass out by now.

I want it for all of us. You're forgetting yourself in the equation.

[Albert chuckled softly] They're still together the last I heard, and I think we'd all know if the two of them broke up. Guess she really does love him.

Not that I can forget successfully with you reminding me. *Reaches out and gives Albert’s hand a squeeze.*

Yeah? I guess I was wrong about him, maybe he is right for Brea.

I'll never let you forget. You're stuck with me until the end. I can't lose you again and I wont.

He makes her happy and he treats her right, better than anyone else she's been with has. He might not be able to love her, but he treats her with care, respect and honesty, and he's a complete goof sometimes like he is.