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[wholeheartedseraph]

It's all over.


.... I have failed.

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[a_time_slip]

If you're sure, then I'm sorry. Will you be alright?

[righteously]

No, man, don't you get it? Don't you get what this means?

[wholeheartedseraph]

I'm not.


[ Castiel mutters, running his hand over his face. ]

I do not think it will ever be alright.

[wholeheartedseraph]

[ Castiel looks tired, there is no other way to explain it. He's exhausted, ridden with guilt and angry. All these emotions he has long sense forgotten come bursting back to the surface. ]

My brothers have had their grace torn from them and I am to blame.

[righteously]

That's one way to look at it, sure.

[He tilts his head, moves to quietly sit beside the new human.]

There's always the flip side, though. You ever think that maybe this is a blessing? That they finally have the chance to see what it's like? Be... human? Feel everything and band together and figure out this mess together without anyone stabbing anyone? Trust me, I know a second chance when I see one and this? Might as well come with a blinking red sign that says do-over.

[a_time_slip]

Ever can be shorter than a second, or longer than an eon. Can I do anything for you?

[wholeheartedseraph]

[Castiel is just staring a his hands, slowly flexing his fingers watching as the skin stretches over the bone and muscles contract. He feels so cofined. Like a blast of lightening trapped in a bottle. He was human. Human. the host was gone, his mind was oddly quite. No buzzing, no constant hum of his brothers far below. His strength was gone. He wouldn't be able to heal anyone any longer, he was stuck to the confines of where his two legs would take him.

Lord in heaven, he was human. ]

I hope they see your reason , Dean.

[ The former angel let out a soft breath, closing his eyes and listening to the sound of his own beating heart. ]

I truly do. There is just some part of me that thinks the "stabbing" part will be inevitable.

[wholeheartedseraph]

You can not.

But your attempts at comforting are appreciated.

[a_time_slip]

Let me know if I can do anything.

Whatever is over, that you think you failed at... well, you probably can't change it, so you need to make the best of what you've got. Nothing is ever hopeless.