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[hasthreefingers]

Oh, no. No. Not this again.

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[ofdrumsthesound]

Then why not commit suicide now, and save myself the extra suffering?

Because the kind of guilt I have waiting for me is enough to break me all over again, just in a more depressing way. At least now I have some happy memories, you know? Give me a better nature and the good things will be the worst.

I need a little bit of madness to be stable at this point. The thoughts that keep me going aren't pleasant ones.