sixwordstories | (no subject)

Ours especially.

Hello.

I still can't decide if it's funny 'ha, ha' or funny in the ironic sense.

Hey Matt, how are you?

Both.

Oh, you know. Stressed. You?

Can't I just have one or the other?

More or less the same. What's got you stressed out?

I dunno, I don't make the rules.

Aw, dumb shit. How's the shop?

Well give me the name of who does! Because I need to lodge a complaint.

It's not dumb shit if you're feeling stressed out about it.

The shop is actually doing very well. We created a lot of hype so I've been on my feet from dusk till dawn. Which is good I guess? But I'm stretching myself too thin. I was hoping after a few weeks it would settle but I don't see that being a thing that happens anymore.

God?

I snapped at Smith and he got butthurt. I was in the wrong a bit, I guess, but it gets all very... trying.

Still, good to start with! I knew you could do it.

Give me his number, I'll tell him he's bollocks!

If it makes you feel any better I've just given up on all that because, as you said, it all gets very trying.

Don't get too excited it's just the first month. I have a lot ahead of me after that. I don't know. I still get very sick when I think of the future.

If I had it, I would.

It does, actually.

Gabe, the NOW is good. Sometimes you have to stop and acknowledge that.

Well supposedly if you say it, He'll listen.

It feels like every time I make some sort of progress I do something subconsciously to foul it all up and rather then just, talk about it, things blow up instead and I just... I have too much good in my life right now to be dragged down by that sort of tripe.

... You're right. The now is good. It's very good. Honestly I don't think my life could get any better then it is right now.

Hmm.

Gabe, I think that is the exact right attitude to have.

High fucking five, man.

If you believe in that sort of bollocks. If there's a God he's a mean son-of-a-bitch.

I think, right now, it works for me. Even if it's not doing me any favours. Matt... Can I ask your opinion on something?

High five indeed.

I agree with you.

Of course.

It's why I don't quite understand people who believe in God. I mean I respect those who do, because that is their choice, but it's just... So hard to believe that anyone could be so cruel to supposedly his finest work.

I... I think I might as Tess to be my wife. I sort of tested it out by telling Mark, and by the way you're not to breathe a word to anyone. Not even your wives. But... I think maybe if we're still together by December I might break all my personal rules and ask but... Do you think that's too quick? I mean. I've only known her for a year and a half and... She doesn't really believe in the concept but... I don't know... For the first time in my life I just, I feel like that's what would make my life complete. And even if I asked and... She said no I'd feel okay. Cause I did it.

I do, but not like... the bible way.

YES DO IT!

Believe in a higher power?

You don't think that's being too forwards?

Yeah kinda.

No!

I do to, but only because if we're it then that's sad. But I don't believe there is a defined God, so-to-say.

I've never thought about doing this before. It makes me nervous and I never assume anyone would like me that much but I think that... I think she's the one.

I don't know how people know that though.