[pinches the bridge of his nose] Anna. You've got everything you evah wanted. You've defeated death. You're alive. You're happy.
And magic's what took all that away from you the first time. And the second. And the third. Why in the name of all that's holy would you want to go back to it?
Magic gave me everything back. Vampires and dying is what took it away. Phil, it's already linked to me. Death is linked to me at this point... I can feel it when I go out. And then... I went out to catch fireflies one day and caught fairies instead. I got a tattoo and now I can barely wake up most days...
I can't get away from it! Doesn't it makes more sense to know what I'm doing than to scramble blindly? I don't want to get hurt and like this... I'm just a danger to myself and people around me.
It ain't linked to you. You've just been touched by it. A lot. But you can end that. You don't want it. I can tell you that, because I've been wheah you ah. I though it was my ansa, even when it was my problem. And it only created more problems. It is nevah the ansa. It only makes things worse. Every. Single. Time.
It is, Phil. You can't be touched by death so much, not like I have, and not have its hooks in you.
[She shifts on her feet a moment and then pulls her shirt away enough to show him the tattoo. A very pretty tribal design that itself carries nothing bad and sealed with her blood]
My friend Jay did it. ...It was supposed to help me sleep without the nightmares I have.
There's something going on with me, Phil. I need to know what it is about me that makes everything turn bad. It's not my imagination and I keep getting drawn to it.
I need to know why and I need to learn from someone I trust. Someone who isn't going to get me killed by accident. I got lucky with Jay... he's one of the good ones... and it still got twisted!
[he kneels and looks at it, running his fingers along it with a slight frown] Huh. Same kinda logic as a rune, kinda, but it isn't exactly a rune. Kinda runic freeform. [rubs his chin, not wanting to trust it, but he makes up runes all the time] Should do what it says, though, but it's interacting with your life energy weahd.
Okay. I'll agree that you got something going on. [stands] But thats even mah reason to avoid magic. Whatevah you do will turn out as bad as that tattoo.
Phil. I'm not asking you to teach me how to fly. Or be a badass like Cait. I'm asking you to teach me to understand how this all works. My 'life energy' is weird. You just said it. I need to know why. I need to figure this out.
Please. I trust you. I don't want to have to find someone else.
[sighs and runs his hand back through his hair] Tell you what. I'll teach you the academic perspective. Not the how-to. We'll do the research, and we'll figure this out. Then we'll get to the how-to of removing a curse.
[Blinks and hugs her back with a little back pat] Yeah yeah. Now I understand why you wandered around my place without pants so much. Now I'm a pushovah.
Please. When has Cait ever gotten mad at you? And you're not teaching me anything bad. Just academics! And I'm smart and totally finished university and was looking into grad school when I died... It will be easy for you! Minimum time invested!
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And magic's what took all that away from you the first time. And the second. And the third. Why in the name of all that's holy would you want to go back to it?
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Magic gave me everything back. Vampires and dying is what took it away. Phil, it's already linked to me. Death is linked to me at this point... I can feel it when I go out. And then... I went out to catch fireflies one day and caught fairies instead. I got a tattoo and now I can barely wake up most days...
I can't get away from it! Doesn't it makes more sense to know what I'm doing than to scramble blindly? I don't want to get hurt and like this... I'm just a danger to myself and people around me.
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...Let me look at this tattoo.
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[She shifts on her feet a moment and then pulls her shirt away enough to show him the tattoo. A very pretty tribal design that itself carries nothing bad and sealed with her blood]
My friend Jay did it. ...It was supposed to help me sleep without the nightmares I have.
There's something going on with me, Phil. I need to know what it is about me that makes everything turn bad. It's not my imagination and I keep getting drawn to it.
I need to know why and I need to learn from someone I trust. Someone who isn't going to get me killed by accident. I got lucky with Jay... he's one of the good ones... and it still got twisted!
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[he kneels and looks at it, running his fingers along it with a slight frown] Huh. Same kinda logic as a rune, kinda, but it isn't exactly a rune. Kinda runic freeform. [rubs his chin, not wanting to trust it, but he makes up runes all the time] Should do what it says, though, but it's interacting with your life energy weahd.
Okay. I'll agree that you got something going on. [stands] But thats even mah reason to avoid magic. Whatevah you do will turn out as bad as that tattoo.
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I'm asking you to teach me to understand how this all works. My 'life energy' is weird. You just said it. I need to know why. I need to figure this out.
Please. I trust you. I don't want to have to find someone else.
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Thank You. That's all I want.
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I hope Cait doesn't get too mad...
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Please. When has Cait ever gotten mad at you? And you're not teaching me anything bad. Just academics! And I'm smart and totally finished university and was looking into grad school when I died... It will be easy for you! Minimum time invested!
You're welcome
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I mean it.
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