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It does take a lot to impress you most of the time.

I have standards.

Standards are good, I have to agree with that. What are you finding unimpressive?

Blueberry yogurt and that prick K is with. [He tosses the half eaten container of yogurt in the trash with a frown.] How does she stick that shit in her mouth and survive?

I... would have eaten that... [he says when the container is already flying. Truth be told, he likes it better when Blue has already been eating it, though] I like it. [he shrugs] You mean that Matthew person?

Ew. You're gross. I bet you drink that shit they call tea too. [He rolls his eyes.] Yeah. Mister fucking super solider. That asshole.

I absolutely do not. Well... once I did. It's rude to turn it down! [He nods, frowning a bit] Why is he an asshole?

It's not rude, it's survival. [Ronan flops on the couch.] A dozen reasons. Maybe more. I've only ever talked to him a few times. K thinks he's fucking amazing though, obviously. So it's probably just me being an asshole, right? Like always?

A little tea wont hurt me, I've already been through more than horrid tea drinking. [Gansey goes to grab two cans of soda, holding one out to Ronan] Well, it's not surprising that Kavinsky would latch on to whoever comes his way. Not that... I don't mean you. Not at all. I just mean that he likes surrounding himself with people. I don't think you're being an asshole.

He likes surrounding himself with assholes and users. Not people. [He waves away the can. All he can imagine doing with it is shaking it as hard as he can and throwing it at something.] I'm fucking done with it, man.

Seemed like he was doing better with that, more recently. [Gansey sets the can aside. He knows that look] Done with it?

By running off to God knows where for who knows how long with Matt? Matt, who likes to physically assault him when he gets pissed? Who threw him from a moving fucking car and then stole his car? A guy who constantly makes threats. Who claims K and his ability to dream are an asset that he'll tap into if he needs it? Go ask Adam to ask the powers that be how they feel about that. Fuck that guy and his God complex. [He snorts.] Fucking super solider who can level the planet with a single thought and he needs K of all people to track down some stupid ass girl? A girl with the same training he has? K with no training, none of that shit they all have and he needs him there? Fucking bullshit.

Done. What the hell do you think done means?

I wasn't aware of all of that. I'm not sure why, but I didn't know he assaulted Kavinsky. And I certainly didn't know about him wanting to use Kavinsky for dreaming up things. [No, he doesn't agree with that at all, but he wonders if it isn't just Kavinsky tapping into parts of him that are still there] I'm sure Kavinsky wanted to go because Gem is important to him. But I understand your concerns and they're very valid ones.

I'm not sure in this case, Ronan.

He fucking sat on him. Broke his fingers once. Threw him from his own car. You know, I tried to talk to his magical fucking guardian about that shit, asked her if there was anything she could do about her boyfriend sitting on K like he was some kind of animal and in the end? I was the bad guy. Because I wanted that fuck to stop hurting K. All of those people are a God damn joke. [He couldn't possibly roll his eyes any harder.] Yeah, maybe they can make out again when they find each other. Fuck her.

She should have listened to you. Both Jen and Matt. Have you tried to speak to her about it again? It always seemed to me like she was a good influence on him, but I can't really say, because I don't really know her. I'm sorry that they're horrible people. I'm sorry Kavinsky gravitates toward that situation. [He frowns deeply] I seriously don't think they'll be doing any of that. You know how he feels about you, Ronan. Didn't they both apologize for what happened? Didn't you forgive him?

I have no intention of ever trying to speak to either one of them. That's K's family. He can deal with them. I don't know what kind of people they are, all I know is what I've experienced. [That gets a groan out of him.] What the fuck does that have to do with anything? Any of it? For once could you just pretend to be on my side for just five minutes? Sometimes that all I need.

I am on your side, Ronan. But what should I say? That yes, you should be angry at him because he will make out with her? I don't believe that to be true and I don't want you angrier over it. I'm always on your side. I've been on your side each and every time. But when you say you're done, and you think they're going to do... whatever you think they're going to do, I don't want you going down that hole either. [he wishes Ronan wouldn't accuse him of things like that, especially in a way that makes it sound like he's only pretending to care. But he knows Ronan is upset, so he lets it go]

I'm already down that hole. [He gets up.] And now I'm leaving.

Ronan... [he sighs, getting up as well] Think about this, please. I understand you're upset about Matt. I don't think how he treats Kavinsky is right and we should probably have a talk with him when he gets back. But I don't think he'd put Kavinsky in harms way, especially with Jen being his guardian. I get why you're worried though, I do.

As for everything else, I'm not sure why you think he will cheat on you again. He's done nothing but devote himself to you, and that isn't me taking anyone's side, I'm just watching you get upset over something that will likely not even happen and I'm not sure why.

Please don't leave. I'm trying to talk to you here. Am I not your friend?

He's been putting K in harms way the entire time they've known each other. Jen's been around. Why would that matter to him now? K is someone he can use. He doesn't give a shit about what happens to him.

From the moment she started coming around it's felt like a competition. I'm done with it. He can't deal with me just being at the Barns for a night without him but the second something comes up with Gem he's out the door as fast as he can to chase after her.

I don't know, Gansey. Nothing feels the same any more.

Then this is absolutely something that needs to be addressed. We all care about him too. I don't want him to get hurt. Doyou think we should go after them?

You two seemed like you were doing well. Aside from the fire incident, but I know that had prompted better things. I didn't know you two were having trouble in relation to Gem. I'm sorry, Ronan. I was under the impression she had disappeared and was in danger. I guess I'm not good at picking up underlying nuances.

[He furrows his eyebrows] With Kavinsky? With us being friends?

No. I'm not chasing after him. This is what he wants to do regardless of how people treat him. It's his choice.

I've always had a problem with her, Gansey. With how the two of them are together. I've fucking made it known to K on several occasions. Most recently after the fire because she was there with him when he did it! But, it's just me being a jealous asshole. No one ever likes to look at the shit they are doing and admit it's hurtful to someone else. So, whatever, it's just one of those things I have to act like I'm okay with. She's a fucking highly trained super solider like Matt the only thing she's in danger of is picking up a disease off a truckstop toilet seat.

Why the fuck would you even be asking that anyway, if we're friends?

I think most of the time he doesn't realize it. He's done it for so long its just a thing that happens.

Well I do agree that burning down houses, not his finest moment and if she was there, not hers either. It's a hard situation I bet, because she's his friend and lets face it, he needs those, but if you don't think she's good for him, its hard to change the fact that they're friends. I'm not sure what to do in this situation. I suppose its how I felt when you were hanging out with Kavinsky, too. At first, of course. He's really come around.

I'm just trying to figure out what you mean, Ronan.

There's nothing anyone can do about any of it. This is what he wants. The friends he wants. The way he wants to let people treat him. His choice.

Just forget it, Gansey. It doesn't matter.

Ronan, if you're unhappy with something, its okay to speak up about it and try to change it. If you're unhappy with the way Kavinsky has been treating you, then... Like I said before, he shouldn't be dragging you down.

It matters to me. It matters very much.