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[tongue_of_lime]

Don't trust your eyes, or heart.

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[janee]

...Why not?

[tongue_of_lime]

Hearts are fickle and weak. So easily swayed. Eyes? They can't be trusted.

[janee]

I always trust my heart...

[tongue_of_lime]

You live recklessly.

[janee]

It's not reckless!

[tongue_of_lime]

Dangerously?

[janee]

No! It's... romantic. Full of happiness and rainbows and berries.

[tongue_of_lime]

For now. But it will not last.

[janee]

It's not?

Oh no! It has to be berries, please say it will be berries.

[tongue_of_lime]

You or your lover will betray. It is inevitable.

[janee]

I deserve it if he does. Maybe we can work past it...

[tongue_of_lime]

Why do you deserve betrayal?

[janee]

Because I betrayed him in the past, kind of. I wasn't myself and he worked through it with me.

[tongue_of_lime]

Did you enjoy who you were when you were with the other?

[janee]

No. I only enjoy life when I'm with him. It's too hard otherwise.

[tongue_of_lime]

He will betray you.

[janee]

I forgive him. I love him. He can't have meant it...

[tongue_of_lime]

Will you forgive yourself?

[janee]

One day. It's just going to take time.

[tongue_of_lime]

But you have that in abundance.

Do you even truly love him if you can move on so easily?

[janee]

I don't move on from him. I know my future, and I'm broken. I leave everything.

[tongue_of_lime]

[For just a moment there's almost a look of sympathy]

He will die.

[janee]

[She's almost in tears]

I can't lose him.

[tongue_of_lime]

He will not find you in time and he will die alone.

[janee]

Can I change it?

[tongue_of_lime]

You can try.

[janee]

I will. I have to stop this. He doesn't deserve to die alone!

[tongue_of_lime]

Does anyone?

[janee]

No one does, but he's saved this world so many times and helped so many people... I can't be responsible for him dying alone.

[tongue_of_lime]

What can you do?

[janee]

I"ll change it so that I was never lost! I'll make myself in the future not break up with him and then he won't have to die alone and if that doesn't work, I'll make sure that I'm easy to find one day and I'll leave a note so that we can meet in the future. At a particular place and time.

I only would have broken up with him in the future if I thought he'd be happier elsewhere. So I just have to convince myself that he never will.

[tongue_of_lime]

Convincing the heart is not an easy task.

[janee]

I can't give up. I'd change anything in time and space to make him happy

[tongue_of_lime]

Anything?

[janee]

Yes.

[tongue_of_lime]

I may have a solution for you.

[janee]

What is it?

[tongue_of_lime]

Meet me tonight at the river. 3am.

[janee]

I will see you there.