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Exactly. So shut it.

[For once, Oni didn't have a snappy comeback. In fact she might be blushing.] That's besides th'point...

You said you'd get me back real good. Death was implied.

Do "they" got a name?

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I was Trying to get a frame of reference of whether you're legitimately fucked up or morally stunted or just some lame version of an asshole bigot. I can deal with one, I can't deal with the other.

Not as much as I should, but when I can. Medication without therapy only fixes symptoms on a superficial level.

Okay, okay.

...You're blushing. [Such glee.]

Don't be stupid, that's not how you get someone. You ruin their lives, you don't kill them.

Why? It doesn't matter. Look, I'm just trying to explain, okay? They use you for sex and for violence and it's... they're never satisfied. In my head. I think I know you're not like that.

Why would I be a bigot?

Why do you need fixing?

Well, there are still things I'm working on, but a few years for the big stuff. Learning to trust myself and my judgement of others took a while.

Okay, to be honest, that kind of surprises me? I mean, we had sex pretty early on and pretty often. Did I freak you out a that point?

I understand that, I think.

Well. I mean... I like sex. But I guess... [A frown.]

You're not using it as a weapon.

You made a bunch of comments that are red-flags for the sorts of people I have to deal with. If it matters? I think you were pointing more towards ignorant victim than ideologically hateful. Either way, therapy would probably help.

I'm bipolar. Hence the cocktail of medications. My manic state can be violent and dangerous to the people around me. My Depressive state can be violent and dangerous to me. Either way, I'm not thinking clearly when I'm in either of those states and I can't afford to not be thinking clearly.

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I've got nothing against your kind, sweetheart.

Okay. That makes sense.

Am not.

Wouldn't know. I'm not really in th'business of ruinin' lives. Not intentionally, anyway.

[Oni scowls. She's not dense; she knows there's a difference between liking a lot of sex and what he's just described.] No... I'm not like that.

But some women are. I think it's natural t'be wary after what you've been through. And I know a wound like that don't just up and heal on its own. Be wary. It's useful, so long as it don't keep you apart from what could heal you.

I'd be glad to answer any questions you've got. It's only fair, right?

[Her voice is soft.] I was a little. Not against you, but I wasn't in a good place and I needed to feel something.
But you think the strippers are doing is something different?

My kind being a Woman, ethnically Jewish or Mutant? I have a few kinds but I wasn't limiting it to just any of my kinds.

So yeah. I need fixing. But that's impossible at the moment.

Down, sweetheart. I'm just saying I don't give a shit.

Guess so.

Did you kill him?

Hm.
I just. They remind me of someone.
...this is all me, isn't it? My perception.

You are! Why?

So trust me.

Heal me. Hm. Like you.

No. I filed for divorce.

Someone who did you some harm?
At least in part. Ezera doesn't seem like the type of person to support sexual predators.

'Cause it-- It's hot in here! It's hotter than two rats fucking in a wool sock!

Don't gimme that look, I was referrin' to your girlfriend. Things are going well with Jen, non? She's not in any trouble, is she?

Whoa. You had a wedding?

Yeah.
I know. And a lot of the girls are victims. But even if they aren't, even if they love their work... it's kinda hypocritical of me to hate them.

Just hating and wanting at the same time. That's not normal, is it?

That's gross, and it's not.

She's doing okay. And you help, too. It's not just her.

Never said it wasn't.

C'est bien. And I'm happy t'help, of course. It's just... Well, let's say there are things she can do for you that I can't and leave it at that forever and ever, amen.

In an Elvis chapel in Vegas. [She sighs.] It wouldn't have been my default choice.

That can do a lot to a lot to cement some bad reactions if you don't try to deal with your response.
Why hypocritical, specifically?

[There's a deep sigh.] It's not healthy. But I think it's more common than it should be. It would be better if you tried to deal with it.

[He stares. And then he snorts. Soon he's laughing.] I'm sorry! I'm sorry but-- [He can't stop.]

Yeah, yeah, take your time.

[He finally stops, wiping his good eye.]

Sorry. I don't know why that hit me so hard.

And you're right. About working on my attitude. I will. Partly for you.

Physical anger's easy to take care of unless you're a psychopath or sociopath.

The other... I still haven't figured that out, so let me know if you do.

[She's not amused, but not angry at him, either.]

Because it sounds like a horrifying cliche?

I appreciate that, even if I hope it's mostly for you. You deserve to have positive relationships with people.