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[bit_awkward]

I'm probably not a zombie... Probably.

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[have_no_mercy]

I'll run you through if you are.

...Gabe?

[bit_awkward]

Head first, I'd hope!

The one and only.

I suppose I have some explaining to do... Huh?

[have_no_mercy]

[She doesn't know what she's supposed to do. Does she hug him? Yell at him? Cry?

No.

Not cry.]

I guess so.

[bit_awkward]

[All of those things would be appropriate at this point in time. He just stands there, awkwardly rubbing his left arm with his right hand.]

I'd be a liar if I said I had a good reason, I mean... I think I did? I needed time. I was in such a bad place for so long... I felt as if I didn't sort it out that I...

[The more he tries to search for the right words the less he seems to find until finally all he manages to eek out is a quiet:]

I'm sorry...

[have_no_mercy]

You're sorry.

[Oh, that's anger. She can work with this.]

You're sorry? What the hell were you thinking? You leave me here with an infant, with no word that you've even left?

God dammit, Gabe. What the fuck did you think you were doing?

[bit_awkward]

[You should know how he deals with anger... Not well. But he doesn't even wince as he normally would when anyone raises their voice. He deserves that anger and she deserves him taking it.]

Becoming better. I don't regret it, because I am better than I was, but I do regret how it happened. How I handled it.

[have_no_mercy]

So you just abandon your daughter.

[She almost wants to cry now.]

Then you can go right on and keep living without us.

[bit_awkward]

[He has no good arguement for that and despite the fact that she could send him flying easily he reaches out to lightly touch her shoulder. Seeing her almost cry is too much. He just can't help himself.]

I'm not asking for forgiveness, but I am asking for time to make this right. Please...

[have_no_mercy]

[She jerks back, away from his touch.]

What if I've moved on? What if there's someone else who isn't just going to run away?

[bit_awkward]

[He deserved that. He let's his hands fall lightly to his side.]

Then I wish you happiness, but I'd hope that you would someday understand. And that I can be involved in your life in some way. If not now, than later.

I made a very strange sound of happiness when I saw this post!

[sam_k_roth]

I like those odds. What should I watch for just in case you are wrong?

It only took like... 3 years and an insane respiratory infection to bring me back! xD

[bit_awkward]

Tired eyes, hunched posture, hunger for flesh... course those first two are often just how I look!

[have_no_mercy]

You left us with no word. How am I ever supposed to understand that?

[bit_awkward]

By letting me stick around to explain. In time.

If not though... can you just, at least let me know how she is?

[have_no_mercy]

You don't deserve time.

She's fine. She doesn't remember who you are.

[bit_awkward]

I suppose I deserve that...

Of course not. What have you said to her, about me? Anything?

[have_no_mercy]

When she asks about you I just tell her you're gone.

[bit_awkward]

Suppose that was kind of a stupid question, huh?

[have_no_mercy]

She's two and a half, Gabe. She doesn't understand complex explanations.

[bit_awkward]

I know, I know. I'm stupid. I just... I promise if I can just see her I swear I'll get out of your hair, forever. I'll stay as far away as you want. Just... I want to say bye. For real this time.

[have_no_mercy]

You leave for three years and now you're back, and all you want to do is see her so you can say goodbye?

[bit_awkward]

Well, I mean, I'd like to stick around. But if you want me to stay gone I'll do that. I'll do whatever you want Tess.

I just... I want at least one last chance to say what I should have before...

[have_no_mercy]

This shouldn't be about me, Gabe, it should be about her.

[hollow_man]

~Said every zombie ever.~

[bit_awkward]

Only the ones who weren't quite turned yet, you know, pre-groaning about brains.

[hollow_man]

~Point. As a technical walking corpse, though, I still think I'm the expert.~

[bit_awkward]

You've got me there, but I promise I lack an interest in eating brains so I believe me to be safe.

How've you been mate? It's been a while!

[killadelphia]

You sure about that, pal?

[hollow_man]

~Fair enough.

It bloody well has. Can't complain, really. You?~

[bit_awkward]

Most days, I am slow and shuffle a lot. But I have no desire for brains so, I think so.

[bit_awkward]

If I start hungering for brains please be kind and dont let me suffer.

About the same. Took some me time, was well worth it.

[killadelphia]

Not wanting to eat brains is always a good sign. No desire to maim and leave a trail of carnage in your wake?

[hollow_man]

~I'll try.

You look well.~