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Somethings are easy to control and some people happen to be good at obtaining control of things.

It's a talent I was blessed with, though so many times it's much easier than one might think.

Even over oneself.

I see now that I wasn't as good at controlling things as I thought I was, but I envy those who do possess those skills.

I will assume then things failed. How so?

Hubris and naiveness, I think, most of my failures can be traced to.

Mine have always been to desire. It's my downfall.

I can certainly appreciate that, but I'm a little surprised. You look like the sort of woman that could have a man on his knees easily.

Oh I am, most certainly. I meant more my own desires and following them too eagerly. Do you ever find yourself seeking something so that you can taste it, even if you know it's bad for you?

Often. The things that I usually yearned for were bad for me. They didn't seem to get in the way of my ambitions though ... till the end.

What happened in the end?

I married the most powerful woman in the world, reaped the benefits of being a king, lost my focus somewhere along the way and I was arrogant enough to think that I couldn't be beaten.

I can understand that, the thought that there's nothing that can bring one to their knees. I'm still recovering from it. Oddly enough because I too lost focus.

Get enough people around you treating you like a god and its easy enough for a proud man to think he might be. Not to mention a life of extreme excess doesn't usually lend itself well to vigilance.

And the drugs probably didn't help either.

If I didn't know better I might well ask if your last name was Shaw. Definitely sounds like the life he and I shared.

A bit of my downfall as well. Your drug of choice?

Do you miss living that lifestyle or miss him ... or both?

Cannabis. Got me the high I was looking for without making me feel like I'd lost my mind. Yours?

I often miss the lifestyle. I was royalty, of a sort, and there were none that would dare cross me. Not and live with their mind intact. I miss the power, the position. Now more than ever.

As for Shaw? He was abusive, cruel and sadistic. I was as much partner as plaything and he never saw me as an equal. I miss him occasionally.

Mine was cocaine. I still miss it as well. I liked being numb and feeling invincible.

It's hard to adjust to life after royalty.

Not going well for you either?

Unfortunately not, but I'll cope.

Worse than that I feel like I'm out of my element and I'm having a hard time finding something to occupy these idle hands.

Have you thought to turn to politics? It is, sadly, the royalty of the day.

I'm not much for politics, though there used to be a number of them in the family.

I tried my hand at it. It was delightful until my secrets were revealed. All of them.

No such thing as a private life for people with high profiles, it seems.

Isn't it?

Thankfully so many never realise.

People are idiots.