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[no-rainbows.livejournal.com]

[Sits, flipping through an atlas, contemplating]

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[namesnotchuck.livejournal.com]

*keeps his distance*

What ya up too?

[no-rainbows.livejournal.com]

[Turns to him] Just looking.

....God, Charlie, I'm so sorry.

[namesnotchuck.livejournal.com]

At an atlas?

For what? *smiles* No reason to be sorry.

[no-rainbows.livejournal.com]

Yes. [Closes the book]

I....okay. [Looks down]

[namesnotchuck.livejournal.com]

Are you ok?

[no-rainbows.livejournal.com]

Of course, why wouldn't I be?

Are you okay?

[namesnotchuck.livejournal.com]

*starts to take a step towards her but stops* Farah, honestly, are you alright?

[no-rainbows.livejournal.com]

Don't. [Whispers]

I'm fine, Charlie. I'm just sorry for what happened and if Snickers was scared.

[namesnotchuck.livejournal.com]

*stays where he is*

*blankly* Snickers is alright. Just worried about you.

[no-rainbows.livejournal.com]

[Looks down a bit]

I'm fine, just tired and sore. Long day, right?

[namesnotchuck.livejournal.com]

Sore? He didn't hurt you did he?

*walks to her, forgetting himself, winces*

Yea, long day.

[no-rainbows.livejournal.com]

What? No, he wouldn't. He's not a horrible man, he cares for me and the baby.

[Watches him, worried look]

Yes. I think I'll be holing up for awhile.

*locked*

[namesnotchuck.livejournal.com]

..he has a weird way of showing it.

*face falls*

I'll stay away from you, if that's what you want. I can drop Snickers off for lessons, but besides that. I'll keep away. I just..I want you to be happy Farah.

Re: *locked*

[no-rainbows.livejournal.com]

[Bites her lip, looking down]

I know you do. I'm....I'm sorry that it's like this. I don't know why or what's going on but I promised to put him first.

He thinks you want me.

Re: *locked*

[namesnotchuck.livejournal.com]

Shouldn't you put yourself first. Your own happiness first? I mean I'm no expert on relationships but I know that they are supposed to be enjoyable, not something you do out of duty.

Re: *locked*

[no-rainbows.livejournal.com]

I worded that wrong, it's all of us first. And it's not duty, it's...it's good sometimes. We're just not very good at this at the moment, it's new. It was just fun at first till we found out about the baby, now it's just taking some major readjustment.

Re: *locked*

[namesnotchuck.livejournal.com]

But it's hurting you. And it kills me to see you this way Farah. For the first time since I met you I feel helpless, I just want to see you happy again.

Re: *locked*

[no-rainbows.livejournal.com]

I am happy, Charlie. I'm just....I just feel bad for what you saw and Snickers being upset. He's a good kid, I don't like seeing him like that.

Re: *locked*

[namesnotchuck.livejournal.com]

Don't worry about me. I'm a big boy, I can take care of myself. *smiles slightly* Yea, he is a good kid. He just doesn't want to lose you. Neither of us want to lose you.

Re: *locked*

[no-rainbows.livejournal.com]

I know you are. [Is doing her best not to cry] I'm not going to stop seeing him. I don't want to lose you guys either but there can't be touching. If he smells you on me at all...it's not worth the risk.

[drunkirishpride.livejournal.com]

Planin' on going somewhere?

[no-rainbows.livejournal.com]

I'm considering it, to be honest.

[drunkirishpride.livejournal.com]

Aye. Can I suggest Ireland? {Smiles slowly} 'M not biased or the like...

[no-rainbows.livejournal.com]

[Laughs] Not biased at all, hmm? Ireland is definitely an option, I've always wanted to go there.

[drunkirishpride.livejournal.com]

{Smirks} Aye. Completely unbiased. Oh, and Ireland s'lovely this time of year.

[no-rainbows.livejournal.com]

I will have to look into plane tickets there, maybe find a bed and breakfast too. [Smiles]

[drunkirishpride.livejournal.com]

May I recommend Cork? Was born there. Are ye and ye boyfriend going together? I know plenty of lovely romantic nooks...

[no-rainbows.livejournal.com]

I'll probably be coming alone but he might join me at some point, never know with him.

[drunkirishpride.livejournal.com]

A beautiful lass like ye shouldn't be traveling alone.

[no-rainbows.livejournal.com]

I'm used to doing a lot of things on my own, so no worries.

[drunkirishpride.livejournal.com]

Aye...Wasn't suggesting anything...{Nervous pause} 'M Aidan.

[no-rainbows.livejournal.com]

[Smiles] I know you weren't, no worries. I'm Farah.

[joeydutton.livejournal.com]

Hi Farah!

Are you going somewhere?

[no-rainbows.livejournal.com]

Thinking about it. [Glances up] How are you?

[joeydutton.livejournal.com]

*shrug*

I'm okay. Where would you go?