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Nikki?

Aren't you the one who exploded above Kirby Plaza?

You could say that...

We all thought you died.

It'll take more then that to kill someone like me.

Well, you're not in pieces. I figured that right away.

Doesn't mean it didn't hurt.

Weak smile.

So, how did you survive that?

I don't want to talk about it right now.

If you say so.

You should never admit that in public.

Why? Because people will exploit it?

That would be why.

I could always be aggressive and say right off the bat that they 'could try', but then this whole reason for saying it would have had a whole different approach.

I'm just used to the predatory sort around here. Too many of them.

It's not really other people that I'm afraid of.

Uhmm, right. Welcome to the world of people not making sense again.

I'm sure if I said it was complicated it wouldn't even be the first time you've heard that excuse, right?

I use it. Especially when explaining why I think shooting people in the head is a good idea.

It usually depends on if these people deserve the bullet.

The ones that I'm ranty about, sure.

So, you've killed people.

I tried, then I slept with the bastard. I'm sort of more favorable to the first.

Funny. I think I can actually understand where you're coming from.

I'm sorry then. I'm sorry for anyone enduring what I went through.

It happened a little differently. I wasn't exactly myself when I was hired to kill someone - a man who I was hired to seduce beforehand. Yeah, when I said it was complicated I wasn't kidding.

Such as?

The people who I can't trust?

Myself?

Why don't you trust yourself?

I don't trust what I'll become now that I'm better

Oh?

Jessica is gone -- at least I think she is. I left the Company before I could reach any kind of real progress. What happens now?

You go forward, live your life. Stop being afraid of her.

It's not that simple, Adam.

It can be. You're giving her power by your fear.

If it's not her then what stops the others? What stops Gina or some other personality? If I'm sick how do I get better?

Stop thinking of yourself as sick, for one thing.

Then what would you call it? Delusional?

No. Just...part of you. They all are, each personality. Just a different facet of you.

And how do I stop those parts of me?

Accept them, accept yourself...that there are parts of you that are not who you necessarily want to be, but that you can control them instead of letting them control you. But you have to acknowledge them first. Take responsibility.

But there are so many things that can wrong with that.

There are so many things that can go wrong with so many things.

But we're not talking about other things.

You can't live for the bad things.

What if...

What if that's all there is?

Take it from me -- it isn't.

How do you do it after so long?

Do what? Believe there's more than just the bad?