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[golden-bill.livejournal.com]

Do they let alcoholics be doctors?

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[alexis-not-alex.livejournal.com]

Probably not, honey.

*worries*

Are you okay?

[golden-bill.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I didn't think so.

*frowns*

I need to stop drinking, I think.

[alexis-not-alex.livejournal.com]

*nods*

Why are you drinking so much?

[golden-bill.livejournal.com]

Because I have dreamless sleep if I drink. Because I don't think about stuff.

[alexis-not-alex.livejournal.com]

*chews on lip, knowing she's not really one to talk*

Sometimes escaping our problems isn't the best way to deal with them...

[golden-bill.livejournal.com]

*nods*

Yeah. Especially when they're not even problems yet.

[alexis-not-alex.livejournal.com]

*smiles softly*

Borrowing trouble from the future never does us any good, honey.

[le-gamin.livejournal.com]

They let all sorts of people be doctors.

Why do you think you are an alcoholic?

[golden-bill.livejournal.com]

I'm not. Not yet.

But I'm on my way. And I'm stopping.

[le-gamin.livejournal.com]

All together? Completely? C'est fini?

You're so young for that.

[golden-bill.livejournal.com]

If I don't I'll loose control and ruin everything I have.

[le-gamin.livejournal.com]

Can’t you just drink a little?

I am not asking to be annoying, I am just curious. My friends always say they are quitting drinking entirely and they do it for awhile, but it seems too hard to cut out something completely. It’s like…vegetarianism.

Do you think you have a problem or are people telling you that you do?

[golden-bill.livejournal.com]

Maybe I should give up meatr too. It's not very good for you actually.

I'm starting to feel like I'm loosing control, Arthur, I'll be doing homework and thinking about how I can get drunk later. It's not right.

[changes-stars.livejournal.com]

Got yourself a problem?

[golden-bill.livejournal.com]

Yeah. I need a solution now.

[changes-stars.livejournal.com]

Bottom line, what's the problem?

[golden-bill.livejournal.com]

I don't know. I guess I can't handle growing up. I guess I'm a coward.

[changes-stars.livejournal.com]

Know that feeling, I was so crowded I left my parents and started living on the streets at a young age. Still never got rid of the feeling. You tried chilling out?

[golden-bill.livejournal.com]

How do I chill out?

[rose-isnt-red.livejournal.com]

I asked the same question once.

[golden-bill.livejournal.com]

You did? Are you a doctor?

[rose-isnt-red.livejournal.com]

Yes I'm a fully trained healer. I wanted to also thank you for looking after me when I was sad that time. You helped a lot.

*smiles*

So what made you ask about alcoholics?

[golden-bill.livejournal.com]

Like a wizard doctor. I've heard of that. I didn't know that. I'm going to go to school to be a doctor as soon as I'm done with college.

It's my pleasure really. Anytime you need help or a shoulder I'm here.

*smile fades a little*
Because if I'm not careful that's going to be me.
What made you ask when you did?

[rose-isnt-red.livejournal.com]

*matches his faded smile, ashamed*

There was a time when this person that I loved since I was a girl walked out of my life. He wasn't in love with me and didn't want to be near me and he left. I was torn to pieces, completely broken. I didn't want anyone to see how bad I was. In the evenings I'd have glasses of wine when reading, trying to clam my nerves, keep me from thinking.

*sighs*

I've never told anyone about that before. I never wanted anyone to know. I stopped after a while, picking myself back up. I couldn't of done it without my family and I didn't want to disappoint my mom. It would hurt her so much.

[golden-bill.livejournal.com]

*listens carefully*
He's a dickhead, by the way.

At least you had an excuse, I've disappointed and hurt most everyone who means something to me. My girlfriend and my mother are both fed up.

I just don't know how to be happy. Or something. I'm honored that you wanted to share it with me. What was your solution?