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Abby, the one I told you about? She was feeling underappreciated and the result was us panicking that she was leaving us.

Well, Tony was panicking. I was fine.

Uh huh.

Has she decided to stay?

She was never leaving, though Tony scared us all with rumours.

I can see why she felt that way though.

It'd be hard. To feel inappreciated for that sort of work.

You don't do the job for appreciation though. If you did, none of us would be here.

No, but sometimes, it's nice to have someone you work with say "Thanks."

Gibbs sent her roses. She gave one to Tony.

Does that bother you?

Why should it? Abby is Gibbs' favourite. As she should be. We all accept that.

Did I say it should? I just asked if it did.

Why should she be the favorite?

You asked. Why would you ask that?

You have to know Abby. She and Gibbs? They're connected. There's a bond between them.

Because you sound upset.

Ziva?

Thank you for trying to help me. Despite the shit I know you've gotten from your friends.

I don't think I'm upset. I am mrely having an irrational moment.

You're welcome. They're used to me doing odd things. Just this time I have a better resaon than most.

It happens. As an irrational artist type, let me say that irrational moments are allowed and encouraged.

Yeah. But you didn't have to believe me. I really didn't think you would. And certainly didn't have to try to close my case.

Some days, I don't know why I believe you either. Other than because of Tali, I feel I must. I just begin to feel I won't ever be able to. They protect him as much as they seem to hate and fear him.

I don't think they're protecting him. I think they're trying to protect you.

I would rather die and see someone trying to stop this man than to live knowing I helped hide what he's done.

I'd rather you didn't die, but I'd sooner help and keep you informed than see you go blindly and get kiled and wnder if I could've helped you avoid it.

I'm at a brick wall. All I've learned? Sylar hurt people more by not killing than killing. It's the only time anyone has seemed upset, genuinely upset, over what he's done.

I think serial killing, as a whole? Feels surreal. I mean, you can intellectually go "He does this, and then this and it's horrible" but you can't feel it. You have a unique, inside grasp on crimes like this. For most of us, they're... like a movie. Unreal. Too horrific to really get.

It's like you trying to really udnerstand my world. I can explain it but... all you can do it compare it to what you know. And it's not that.

Suresh is letting another man's actions dictate how he sees himself. I'm certain of it. For his child, if nothing else, he must let that go. He did nothing wrong in trusting Zane.

Most of us define ourselves by how we think others see us. If you don't, I really fucking admire that.

I've let one person do that. He's the reason I'm where I am now. If I let others actions dictate who I am? I wouldn't be here because of Ari. And Tali. And my Father.

I know how others see me. I can't live worrying about that.

I wish I'd been that strong.

No. I don't think you do. The price you pay is too high.

No. I really do.

I know the price I paid for my desperation to feel accepted.

You would perfer lonliness and being emotionally distant?

I was lonely. Constantly. And I felt everything. I still do. Too much. Everything I painted, I felt for them. Even before, you know, the visions.

Yes. I would have. I might have been less stupid for it.

Trust me when I say you don't want it. I know you won't believe me, even as I don't wholly believe you that it would be a bad thing.

My inability to control my emotions was how I ended up a junkie. I think there'd be downsides. I just don't know that I wouldn't prefer them.

My ability to, more or less, control mine, make me perfect for my former job.

Also means I can't just say to certain people what I feel.

I've sort of noticed that one.

Would you prefer that?

I also now feel the need to make note that I don't actually have feelings for any certain people... thereby proving my point.

Maybe.

If you don't have those feelings, I would have liked that. If you do and can't admit it... Whatever makes you comfortable.

... I can't afford to have them.

Now, for a moment, imagine if you didn't have that choice. You have to have them. And you have to either act on them, or do something to directly counter them. Ignorance is NOT an option.

Directly counter them? I...

I would act on them. Ruin everything from my career down but act on them. Directly counter would mean hurting him and I would not do that.

THat was my life.

For comparison.

Are we referring to Abigail?

Mainly. All of us. I don't think we do it enough for one another.

We forget to use the words most of the time, don't we.

I think we're just used to knowing one another is there. We don't question it, so we don't think to say more.

I'll 'prieciate you! (Cause your pretty and you look like you're good at kicking people! Those are both important qualities)